Ribbed

Weight of the world

The sound of the camera clicking, "SooOo, what can you say about Yves Lockwood?" The room was filled with voices, people were busy asking people question and recording them. Everyone was too occupied with their own businesses, It was June 20, 2022. Mrs Tomol, our English teacher asked everyone to create a survey about class presidents. It was childish to be honest but for the sake of our grades no one dared to say anything about and just grabbed their cameras, whether it was on their cellphones or Ipad or laptop. I heard David say " What can you say about Yves Lockwood?" He was asking Christian. He just pulled a thumbs up and then left, you could see his lost of interest when asked about the question and left immediately. It made me then wonder, What does people think of Yves? Who is she exactly? How is she exactly?? I was lost in thought again, I felt numb all over again, my heart started to feel heavy. My mind was swimming with thoughts,

My mind shouting in regret, memories flashed. Doubts enter, not knowing I was already swimming in thoughts made by my mind. I was brought back to reality when I heard someone calling my name. "YVES!" "YVEEEEEIE" it was Monique and Nicole. They're twins by the way, they're a year younger than me but we created a great and strong bond, they're just some of my friends. "hUH?" I said in response, then I felt a light slap in my left arm. It was Kim, "You're thinking again" she said and I just smiled at her. For 20 years of my life, I have never questioned my life, my identity, my destiny. I always knew I was born for something big, I was always a role model. I was always the leader, but then again rephrase my sentences "I" meaning I was alone. for my whole life, I was always with adults. With people twice or even thrice my age, The youngest I've been with is 10 years older than me. So when they (her friends) came I saw sides of me that I didn't knew I had, I felt new and fresh but I also felt that It wasn't me anymore. I have always been reserved, prim and proper. I don't like laughing to the point people would see my throat, I don't like jumping around like a kid. in short I act like an adult, I'm mature so when I lose up I tend to be reluctant, When I get excited I tend to forget who I am and that caused me to be CONFUSED! it cause me to doubt, it causes me to feel anxiety and self pity.

Especially when I did something I always knew I wouldn't... But that's another story to tell.

"Come on, lets get lunch. My sister is with dianne already" Kim said. "You guys go first, I have to check the kids. Ms. Songco asked me to check for her earlier." I said. "You want me to go with you?" Asked monique, I shook my head and smile and they left to go to get lunch. Me, Mark and Monique volunteered at the day care in our school, We babysit the teachers kids after our class or when the teachers have meeting. I first applied to be an assistant teacher, since i love kids. However, years passed the kids kept coming so it was too much for me to handle. I got Christian to apply and we both became teachers, those were fun days. thanks to the kids, I got to know Mark better! I saw a side of him that only I see, We became extremely close but after something Monique had to apply to be a teacher too... The kids brought the three of us together, and I wouldn't change it for someone or anything. I was thankful and blessed I got partners like them, even if sometimes we would have misunderstanding here and there.

I was walking through the hallway and I could already hear the kids screaming and the weight of them running was echoing through the floors. I looked at my watch "It's 1pm, no one should be with them" I thought. I hurriedly run towards the room and peeked at the little window by the door. I saw Christian playing with the kids, that instantly brought a smile in my face but I was quick to knock it off. I cleared my throat and knocked then enter, all of them turned their heads to me. All the kids came running to me causing me to fall, "TEACHER YVE ISS HERE!!" says Daniyah along with Jedidiah. I smiled and was quick to hug them back, "You can go now, everyone is in the cafeteri-" I turned my head and saw that Christian already left. I sighed, "Are you sad that Teacher Christian did not say bye-bye to you again, Ms. yve?" Daniyah said. I smiled and said "Never mind me, How are you guys? I won't be here for too long. Ms. Songco just asked me to check you guys and it looks like Teacher Mark already checked you" I said while fixing my bag. "AWWWW, youu never teach usss like before! only Ms. Songco" they complained cutely.

then, the door opened. It was Mark, "They're waiting for you, lets go now" he said. To my suprise, I only nodded. That was the first time he talked to me again, we bid our goodbyes to the kids and walked through the quiet corridors. The room was filed with silence and awkwardness, we were walking together but meters apart from each other. "The kids said they missed us teaching them" I said to break the silence, "Yeah, I missed playing with them." he replied. "is that why you checked on them?" i added and he just nodded in response. We stopped by the elevator, (yeah, our school has an elevator) I entered and turned around facing the door, I realized He wasn't going in. "aren't you coming?" I said while holding the button, so the door won't close. "I still have somewhere to go" he said. "By the way, you don't have to break the awkwardness between us. see you yv" He pushed the close button and the door shut in slow motion. I was suprised and hurt with what he said, is me trying to fixed us a problem now?? My heart couldn't help but get hurt. As I was walking out of the elevator, I composed my self and saw a bunch of weirdos waving at me signaling me to come and sit with them. "At least, I have them"