Ribbed

Sometimes, a little goodbye won't hurt.

It's almost been a year since everything happened, here's a run-down on everything that has happened ever since. 

I moved to Europe, pursuing my dream on becoming a pediatrician which I have succeeded. Christian, I don't know about his recent whereabouts but I heard through Dianne that he has moved someplace. I remained connected with Nicole and the others, today marks our 10th year of knowing each other. Everyone decided to fly back home to have a reunion, I would love to go but because of my shift I couldn't,  Nicole told me they'd just call me through zoom so I wouldn't feel left alone. Everyone grew up, all of us achieved our dreams, everyone left the past and moved for the future. Oh! I almost forgot about Cj, Cj and I are just good friends however, He did confess that he had romantic feelings for me but I quickly turned it down since I am not ready to be in a relationship yet, he was a great guy though. I'm sure whoever he'll end up with will be truly blessed. 

A year before today.

It's been almost a year since the break-up happened. I am no where near okay, It's late night and I spent these last few months in my office drowning in paper works since "wedding" season is coming again. I let out a deep sigh before I heard a knock in my door, "Hey Ams? still not going home?" asked Chelsea. "I will, after I finish this. Go home, I know your tired" I said while I still continue typing in my computer. "tired? girl, please if you look at both of us you're the one who's tired." she argued. "Don't worry!! I'll go home after I finish this, promise." and gave her a reassuring smile. "text me when you get home okay?" she said pointing her fingers on me. "Yes babe" I said then rolled my eyes. After Chelsea left, I immediately closed the tab on my computer and packed my things and head out. I still live with Nicole. I am planning on moving to Europe and staying there for good, I wanted to continue my dream of being a pediatrician and starting a new life. It's a hard decision since I will be leaving everything and everyone here but It's time I think about myself. This is not how I imagine my life will be to be honest, the life I once thought was predictable turned into something I have no complete idea what will happen next. I've been secretly planning my flight and thinking about flying around May or April, I already have a  prospect university I'm planning to go to and I'll be probably will be staying with my grandparents. I already settled the house me and Christian use to live, I decided to make him pay the rent from the past months and transferred the name to his. About the guy I ran into the train station, I ghosted him months ago. We gotten very close and found myself actually falling for him, I wasn't ready to be in a relationship again and me being me, I panicked got scared and hit the blocked button *smiles widely* though I did tell him that...I still feel bad. I told myself, I'll be telling Nicole and David about my flight soon but I can't get myself to tell them. 

All my life, it's always them who's leaving and I'm the one waiting for them to return. This time I wonder what it's like to be the one leaving...

I arrive at Nicole's house. I removed my shoes and changed into my house slippers, placed my bag in the rack and entered the living room. I saw David and Nicole sitting by the fire, eating cookies. If I didn't know these two I swear I shipped them already, "Yveee, why are you so late? David is about to finish the cookies" Nicole pouted. "haha, why is there something going on??" I said with confusion written in my face. "My 3000, it's our anual "Iwangang" movie night" David calmly said. Iwangang, that's what we call our trio. Since David's a drummer, Nicole is a guitarist and I'm a vocalist/pianist we three were the ones usually lined up. The others would go out and us three would be left alone, that's how this beautiful trio was formed. Every year we would have our anual "Iwangang" Movie night, I remember that Me and Nicole would always sneak out of the house so that we could go to David's house and that time where they were so suspicious of me and Christian because he suddenly joined our movie night. 

"Bub, I know you have a lot in your mind and it scares me that one day you'll forget who we are." Nicole said. I slapped her arm and rolled my eyes "I was kidding! let me change and let's watch" "DAVID DON'T EAT ALL THE COOKIES" I shouted which left the two laughing. 

Nicole's POV

Yves, where do I even start with her? I'm blessed to call her my bestfriend but sometimes I also regret it...Kidding. She's a year older than me yet she acts like a baby but sometime reliable, she's a sunshine on the outside but really a moon inside. She tends to overthink about the simplest thing said to her, she's to kind and generous that it's actually annoying, why? because in the end she ends up getting nothing! out of all of us friends, she was the one who received pressure. She has been always the "leader" she's the one who shoulders the burden, there was a time wherein we got in trouble and she was the one who got the scolding and nobody sees that. she's always the one we go to and tells our problem and yet when it's her time to say it, people misunderstood her. I saw that and nobody else did, I saw every time she would  exclude herself to us just to protect Christian. I saw how she blamed herself when they got caught, the way she cried, the way they would always pin point her. What annoys me more is that after everything that has happened she still loves him! 

I'm not surprised why Yves is like that today, after everything she went through, I could never judge her. Heck, I know there's more to what she tells me. I will always be here beside her, I know she knows that, I may act cold towards her sometimes but she knows how much I love her. she was one of the friend God gave me when I was praying for one.

Back to Yves's POV

It's been 30 minutes in the movie and I couldn't sit still, I already booked my plane ticket. I'm officially going home on April, I know I have to tell them tonight or I wouldn't be able to sleep well. "guys?" I said receiving their full attention. I signal David to pause the tv, "I have something to say, please don't get mad ESPECIALLY YOU NICOLE" I said. "YOU AND CHRISTIAN ARE BACK TOGETHER??" Nicole said. "HECK NO! ARE YOU CRAZY?" I said, "She's not but you are" David said causing me to slap his arm. "OUCH" "GIRL JUST SAY WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO SAY"

"I-" 

my tears started to fall...

"you?" "you?" 

"I'm leaving for Europe, I booked a ticket on May" 

"WHAT?"

"WHAT??"

"I'm sorry, I know it's selfish of me but I can't take it anymore. This place, everywhere just reminds me of everything..."

"bub, who said that's selfish??" 

"You're really going?"

"I'm sorry, but I promised to spend my remaining months with you two.."

"I'm proud of you" David said.

and we spent the night crying and laughing...