Ribbed

truth untold...

days had passed, it was already time for the big event. Everything was going well, everything is in place except the fact that me and Christian hadn't been okay, for the past days...

It was the third day Yves and her team were arranging the place. Christian's mother and the other aunties, went and visited the place. Since Faith, the bride was very close to everyone and became like a family. The whole community was very excited about the upcoming wedding, it was the time where daughters would be pressured to also get married. time where mothers would get jealous to the one who's getting married, wishing it was their son or daughter who was getting married. Yve and Christian were already engaged, but it seems like Christian had no means of marrying her. "Hey, Mira. isn't that Amara? Christian's girlfriend?" "yeah, actually, she is his FIANCE" "it's been a few years already, don't they have plans on getting married?" "Yeah! I bet Amara also wants to experience on being the bride" "I'm sure they already have a plan about it. let's just trust the kids, ok?" "I mean, we're just concerned. Amara is a beautiful woman, smart and capable. she's perfect, any man could take her away if Christian wouldn't make a move yet and seal the deal. you know that right?" "she's still considered as a bachelor, yes, she is wearing an engagement ring but not a wedding ring" "they're perfect and I don't want to pressure them, they're fine."  

I put down the boxes I was holding and left to go outside due to the stress and lost of interest I felt. I went out in the beautiful garden, where the altar was placed and I stood on it. I took a deep breath and let out everything that has been bothering me. Ever since me and Christian got engaged, every wedding I would hear everyone wondering when it'll be ours. The first year I wasn't worried and pressured but now that it has been almost 6 years , I'm starting to get tired waiting for Christian. these past days we haven't talked that much, since I have been busy with the wedding and for Christian, I don't even know what he is up to these days. all I know is that he practically live in his company now, he barely texts me and when he does its either he has something to ask or just to ask me if I have eaten but that's it. As I was drowning in my thoughts, I was interrupted by an arm wrapped in my waist. 

"Hey love, what are you doing here?" "I could ask you the same Christian." 

"Hey, why are you sad?" he turned me and pulled me into a hug.

"I'm fine, I'm just tired I guess" I said blankly. 

"what is it, I know you're not ok" is it about the "wedding" again?" "Are they pressuring you again? huh? love?" 

"you know how to end it, why not just seal it?" "I just don't get why you still don't want to get married. If you're not marrying me, why did you even propose?? are you scared? is there something wrong with me? do you not love me anymore? is there someone else in your heart now??" I said while bursting into tears.

"hey, hey, Moon, who said I didn't love you anymore? who said I don't want to marry you??" 

"then why? why haven't you married me yet?" 

"Moon, I don't want to get married just because people are commanding us or because of mere pressure. You know I love you, You know and remember what I said? I won't marry anyone unless it's you" "Moon, I need you to trust me." 

"I do trust you Christian, I'm just tired! I trusted you for years and every year, you would just say not yet, that there is a perfect time! I have been arranging weddings, thousands of them and in every one, I would ask myself, when will it be my turn? my turn to pick a dress and walk in that freaking aisle! I don't care if my wedding consist of millions or thousand or even if it's just me, you and a freaking priest! all I want is to marry you! to be called yours!" 

He, he just remained silent.

"I don't even remember the last time we kissed..." "All my freaking life, I have been chasing you. And if you tell me you do care about me, then why am I feeling this?"