Ribbed

You're the greatest plot twist.

It has been a week since my whole life went downhill, all those years I spent making sure and lying to myself that I made the right decision just collapsed. It felt relieving and peaceful but, The whole I covered up is now empty, I can feel the emptiness and darkness cover me once again. Ever since I was a child, around 8-9 I would always look at the sky whether it's a day, noon, or night and I would always see the world as a box. A box where all the people are just puppets being controlled by someone, People are just Barbie's who after being played with will be dismissed, forgotten, and thrown. I'm back to that feeling again, like I'm in some type of box, playing along with the story played by a little girl. I always thought I would be someone who is successful in life, perfect life. I've always been told that I'm a perfect girl, I'm the main character of some story. Is this pain a part of the plot? if so, I can't wait to get to the part where the main character regains herself. Yeah, sure, everyone experiences a breakup but, not everyone has the same reaction to one. I would always think that those who go through breakups are just over-acting, it seems just so easy to tell them "move on, you'll find someone better" but no, we wish it's that easy. that easy to move on with life, move on to do daily activities like you do when you were single. However, it is not like that, If I could erase the pain, I would but I can't! it's just the pain of losing someone, it's even better to lose someone for good. other than losing someone and seeing them with someone else, it's like climbing a mountain with someone and doing it by yourself, that's the hardest part.

I left Nicole's house early today, forced myself up, and got a dress to look somewhat human. I grabbed a bag and headed to the door, It's been a week and I'm starting to run out of clothes to wear. I've been wearing Nicole's clothes and to my liking, I'm looking way too much like her, No offense, my love. I started to walk through the neighborhood towards the station, my car was still at the venue and my extra car keys are at home, it's been ages since I rode the train so might as well ride it. I mean, what could go wrong right? When I arrived at the station, I went directly to the ticket booth and bought a train card, I actually like the idea of riding the train instead of taking my car, so while I stay with Nicole, might as well take advantage. I quickly grabbed my newly bought train card or "metro card" and rode the escalator. As I was reaching for my headphones which were in the pocket of my bag, my eye saw a familiar figure, without hesitation, I looked up, and to my freaking surprise, it flipping Christian! out of all the flipping places in the world why here? why now? why me? I was sure, he glanced at me. I panicked and hurriedly climbed towards the top, mind that there were a lot of people in the metro since it was a weekday at 8 am in morning. I swear by snowy that Christian just saw me and was coming towards me, so I run and kept looking back and of course, would it be my life if there were no clumsiness involved?? of course not! yes, yes because I kept looking behind me, I didn't notice there was a guy coming toward me. So in other words, I bumped into a guy.

"Woah, Woah. watch where you're going"

"Are you alright?"

he offered a hand and took my bag which was on the floor and dusted it.

"Yeah, I'm alright. I'm so sorry"

"No, no don't worry." 

"why are you even running like that?"

I saw Christian and my eyes immediately searched for somewhere to hide. Then, this guy grabbed me and put his arm around me covering me, making me hidden from Christian.

"stalker?"

"h-huh?"

"that guy, I'm definitely sure the reason why you were running is because of that guy."