Hyunlix oneshots

My escape

What's my love language? I don't know. I guess I've never really thought about that.
I mean, does such a thing even matter?
My friends like to say that I'm pretty clingy. I think they are wrong tho. I don't really enjoy skinship. So is it my love language? Don't think so.
You see, I haven't really loved anyone like that. Like yeah, I love my friends, my family and my dog, but I've never liked anyone.
However I like to make all these storys in my head. When I'm alone I imagine that there was someone. I've created this character. His name is Felix. He has freckles and blonde hair. He's really sweet.
He likes baking and hugging people. He can be kinda sensitive sometimes, but that's ok.
Felix is shorter than me. He wears big hoodies that almost swallow him and make him look really small.
Felix isn't chatty aroud strangers, but he can be really loud if he gets exited.
When we sleep next to each other he gently leans closer and closer to me. It's really cute. He's my sunshine. Whenever things go wrong he's my escape. He makes me feel happy when the world can't do that. I've drawn pictures of him so everyone could see him. Even tho I never show them to anyone.
I kinda hope that he's real in some other life and we could be together.
I can't really explain the feeling. He's like a warm hug or an umbrella that blocks the rain from my life. I don't know. Sounds crazy, right? I suppose it is. Lix is my closest friend...even tho he doesn't even exist.
Oh wow I sound lonely. I do have friends! I really do, but they just can't take all this stuff that's going on in my head. Sometimes I feel like I bother them too much with my stuff when they have their own problems too. Chan always says that I should tell him if something's wrong. I just can't. I can see that Chan is already struggling and I almost feel like he's trying to distract himself with other people's stuff. I think he should just face his problems instead.
That's when I share my things with Felix. He's always there and ready for me.
I wish I could meet him and hug him in real life....I guess that's never happening.
I don't know if it's worrying that I once in a while cancel my plans with others just to go into my own world. Sometimes I'm convinced that I've gone mad.

Chan
Hyunjinnie! We've got a new friend! His name is Felix:)
3.24pm
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