How much power do I give him? When I stop and think about it, it's nearly more than I give myself. He takes up most of the space in my thoughts. I've dedicated playlists, notes, daydreams, drawings and even my own pride just for him. When he even looks at me, he owns me. One smile and I'm down to throw myself away. My respect for myself goes down by a half when I feel their presence. Yet still they don't even know. It's kinda creepy, but also I would die to know that someone feels like this about me. I waste so much energy to someone who barely knows me. He's my whole world, but to him I'm that one random person they see once a day and maybe say a few words to. To him those conversations are nothing but awkward, but to me they're new material to my nightly dreaming. Proof that there's still hope. I know there isn't, but I can't let him go. He has me in a choke hold. Why waste all this time? As stupid as it is, I can't help it.
This is a little different type of writing, but I wrote this one out of experience. Hope you like it and maybe even relate:)
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Hyunlix oneshots
FanfictionRandom Hyunlix oneshots. They might be a bit emotional and will include selfharm etc. (Only using the idols as bases for fictional characters! Everything is made up in this little crazy head of mine:))
