Paradoxes of her.

Chapter III. Oh Kiddo!

"Ahhh and soooo where is your Mom?". I'm scared to ask but i ask him anyway. 

"She's out there. I know someday she will come home again. ". I can see his sadness. Maybe just maybe that is why he really likes listening to me because I remind him of his mother. I feel something bad, something like i felt before. Now I know I can make someone happy by just talking to him. 

"So, what kind of story do you like Dylan". I smiled. 

"Yey! Any kind. Oh Oh i want a real life story or maybe some kind of Fictional stories but anything! Anything Yumi! ". He's really hyper again. 

"Haha Okay then, Once upon a time............"

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"Time to go home". I said as I gave him a tight squeezing hug. 

"Thank You Yumi!" He hug me back more tightly. 

"Oh! Haha I'll see you again next weekend geeky". and then i gave him his back pack and bid him goodbye. I slowly close the door and watch him walks down the street from the window. 

"Yumi, it's time for bed". an old lady said. 

"Yeah, im coming". Another day just passed by. My eyes started to feel sleepy and then my head hurts. Maybe I'm just tired and I really need some sleep tonight I've been up for how many days because of my headache. I guess i just need some medicine. 

"Good Night Yumi. I hope you'll have a great day tomorrow". There she comes. She's old but still too sweet to me. She turns off the light and then close the door. 

"Goodnight Aunt Annie". and then i slowly close my eyes and falls asleep.

From across the street. 

" Dad, I miss mom". 

"Oh Dylan i miss her too.". 

"Why can't we just bring her home again". 

"Soon. So, did you have fun today? 

"Yes, I hope we're gonna be a family again. She still looks beautiful Daddy it's like she didnt change a bit". 

"She's really beautiful and your Dad is handsome too". He laugh. 

"Dad, can you tell me the story between you and Mom? " 

"Well Dylan it's kinda late and we have to sleep now. I need to work hard again tomorrow, maybe some other time". 

"Okay but when is that?" Dylan briskly asked him.

"Maybe Tomorrow. Okay then have a goodnight sleep tonight my boy. I love You". and he kiss him on the forehead as he tucked him to sleep.

"I love you too Dad". and then his father turn off the lights. 

Dylan couldn't sleep at all so he turns on the Lamp and get his pencil and his notebook and started to write some notes again. 

It's once in a lifetime that you find a love as pure as a crystal water. My mom and my Dad have that kind of Love.

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"Why? " it's just a single question but it needs more than a thousand of answers.

"Don't make it hard for both us" he said.

"I ——-" I couldn't say anything. Hatred starts filling up my heart but my love for him is stronger than that.

Even if the World throws the best man in the world for me, I'd still choose him. Love? You cannot give the correct definition that suits the word Love. He means the world to me but right now I feel like losing someone for the rest of my life.

"You said you needed some space and I gave it to you but it I didn't know that the space you were asking is the space in your heart." Tears keeps on rushing down my cheeks like it's having a marathon, couldn't do anything to stop it. He didn't say anything.

"I know you love me, I can still feel it. Maybe you're just confused about what's happening right now. I understand you and I will never get tired of it. I still have 12 more days, 12 more days and maybe by that time you already made up your mind". I started to hug him but he was cold as ice that he didn't even hug me back. I slowly touch his cheeks, caressing it softly with my fingers while looking straight to his eyes trying to find something in there. Something that I used to see before whenever I stare right through his eyes but.... It's gone.

 Two Weeks have passed and I keep on waiting for him hoping that I can finally sleep at night again. Hoping that one day I will wake up because of his Good Morning text and spend the whole day with the same feeling as before. What happened to us?

Year 2004

 "They say you don't really know what you got till it's gone". Rose said. She keeps on picking up random quotes from the internet and made something out of it and someone she thinks she created it.

 Rose is my best friend and the actual opposite of me. She looks innocent while I look like someone who wouldn't do anything good. She likes ponytails and pigtails while my hair seems to be really messy like I haven't even meet Comb and clips or even Conditioner and shampoo. God, I don't like taking bath either. She likes pink and I don't. Most of the times she's just quiet and patiently writing down in her diaries the name of the guy that she really likes over and over again while I'm just there sitting and looking at nowhere until my mind starts to flew into the sky with strange imaginations. People really find her adorable and wait—— why does the bad part of being a human being should always have to be mine? Enough of that thing! The reason why we became friends? I actually don't know. Maybe you should ask her?

"Actually you knew exactly what you had; you just thought you'd never lose it". I said while reading a magazine.

"Oh, hey you wanna talk about something?" she slowly comes closer to me.

"It's okay." I'm okay... I guess so.. I need to..

"No you're not okay. We've been friends forever and I can feel it."she looks down and allow herself to breath a little bit before saying "I can feel that you cannot take it anymore. It's okay to cry, you've been tough enough for a long time."

 There comes the moment that it seems like my spirit had left my body. She's right, she's actually right. It's okay not to be okay. It's been weeks and the bags underneath my eyes looks really awful. I don't feel that I belong to myself anymore and I actually miss my old self.

 I'm fine. I still have 3 more days" I said. Trying to smile and hide all those scars but my tears are stubborn that it let go of itself again.

"Come on! For the first time think of yourself first. If the guy really loves you he should be here right now with you. So, where is he? " she said with hatred on her voice.

"Come on! Now, tell me where is the love ha? Even the black eyed peas couldn't help you right now."

"I can still take it" I said. I know that I can still wait, I told him that I will wait for him.

Sometimes I feel like I'm waiting for somene that would never come back.....

"Tell me. Honestly, what happened to both of you?".

"What happened to us?"...... I couldn't answer it.

What really happened to us?