Paradoxes of her.

Chapter VIII. Say something

Thoughts of him had ruled my days and dreams of stolen kisses had tormented my nights. Who is this guy? The cool evening breeze blew across my skin and I inhaled deeply. It’s been 2 weeks since the last time that I saw him, the mysterious guy in the ball, but still, there was such an intensity in the way he had looked at me.

I wonder what does he looks like. Sculpted by a master’s hand, his lips look perfect and firm. His voice was deep, low and distinctly accented and every word that comes out from his mouth, makes me shiver. “Stop thinking about him Yumi, focus!” I try to lecture myself.

I still have some unfinished business to solve and there’s no room for any mistakes right now. I went straight to the shower to cleanse myself to remove any polluted thoughts running across my pervert mind right now. I smiled and close my eyes, relaxing my body and soul before stepping out in the cruel world again.

This is the day that I’ve been waiting for. The day that I can finally breathe the life that was stolen from me.

From the girl who doesn’t even meet conditioner and shampoo to someone who’s so vain about her looks but of course I value my brain more. Cleansing, toning and moisturizing every morning and night. Scrub my face about three times a week and do a facial mask once a week. I have to be extra careful with the things that I eat, it’s part of loving myself. I donated most of my old clothes, except those that I really like, to the unfortunate people in our town. Goodbye to my lose clothes and hello good sense of style. After shower, I thoroughly look at myself in the mirror. I stretch a little bit then gently touch my face. What to wear? Hmmm.

After a lifetime choosing what to wear, I ended up wearing a fitted black tank top that hugs the shape of my body, dark wash mini skirt and high heel boots. I didn’t put any make-up, I still love my natural face and just let my blonde curly hair in a little bit of a messy style. Once again, I look at myself in the mirror and smiled.

“Say hello to Yumiko Lockhart… Once again”.

Flipside Garden

 “So?” I nervously ask Cassandra.

“Really?” she raised her right eyebrow and look at me with a frown.

“Hey, don’t give me that look. Just tell me, do I look okay”.

“Do you look okay?”

“Before I left, your name is Cassandra, my friend. But now after a month, you became a parrot?” I slighted put my hands on my chin and bite my lips.

“Okay, first when did you become mean? Are you a member of the mean girls now?” she paused for a bit then “second, are you really my friend? because if you’re not Yumi, you better not show your ass here and just let me see her again. Third, you don’t look okay! You look amazing!” rolling her eyes when it comes to Amazing!

“The first two questions are really difficult to answer but thanks for the compliment” then we start hugging each other. It’s been forever!

“Hey, if you didn’t forget about yourself and been like that before, oh oh he doesn’t have to find another girl!” that’s the Cassandra that I know, frank and yeah horrible. Kidding!

“Chit-Chatting without me?” and Katrina is here. I miss them! She slightly punches my right arm then starts hugging me.

“Woah! Gorgeous!” I just smiled and take a bow.

“Hey Snow white, when did you woke up?” she starts teasing me.

“I didn’t fell asleep! I just took a nap but now I’m wide awake” and then I wink at them.

I’m back and I’m not the nerdy girl before. I change myself for the better and it’s just getting started. I haven’t seen him for a while and so as he. He keeps playing games with me but he doesn’t know that I’m one step ahead of him. Maybe two or more steps ahead of him.

The news about Yumiko Lockhart’s come back spreads really fast, faster than 4 o’clock. Those who are insecure about me, can never be my friend that’s why I never really trust any “Yes, Yes” kind of person. I strive to be the best and I keep on going and going just to be on top of the class.

Everything is in the right place and I wouldn’t allow anyone to stand in my way now. Not now. A flash of the past events came across my mind as I saw the guy who crashed my soul walking towards me WITH A SMILE ON HIS FACE. Can you believe that?

I force myself to smile and to keep myself compose. Relax. Just relax.

He looks straight in my eyes and slowly kisses me on my forehead. I can see how he looks at me and the spark on his eyes. “You are sure a great actor” I silently tortured him on my mind. He gently press his head into mine, bumping our heads slowly while saying “I miss you”.

I didn’t say a word, I just keep on smiling. Everybody keeps on looking at us, some are smiling while others are shaking their heads. Before he left me told me to meet him at the park where we always meet and where he secretly broke my heart. He gave me that half smirk on his face before walking.. “Classic!” but it doesn’t work for me anymore.

 Relax.

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At 3:00 o’clock his already in the park waiting for me near the fountain. Well, his not late at all. In fact, he’s early unlike before. He’s standing there with a bouquet of red roses in his right hand. If I didn’t know anything, I might be the happiest girl on Earth but right now, I want to drown him on the fountain. He’s mischievously smiling at me. After several steps, I stopped.

He looks so handsome with his white shirt and faded jeans. His blue eyes were sparkling with the sun. I continue walking until I finally reach the right spot. He gave me the red roses but I can’t afford to accept it.

“I…” I glanced away frowning, trying to gather my thoughts. He looks at me and gently touches my face.

“Before you say anything, let me talk first”. He looks at me and gently touches my face.

“I did a lot of terrible things and some of those are unforgivable. I…” he stops for a while and close his eyes. “I need you. I want to be with you and I know it sounds crazy but I don’t want to open my eyes without you beside me. I’m a terrible person; I know that but you always bring out the best in me without any effort. I love you, I always do.” I want to believe him but I can’t.

“I know those fake smiles that you keep on giving me. I’m the only person, except from your mother, who knows you more than you know yourself. Please don’t give-up on me”.

“That’s what he said?? So, did you accept him?” Rose, of course, just interrupted in the middle of my story. Everybody is waiting for my answer, it’s already 6pm and we’re gathering in my room.

“Well, I…….”

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