My Life

Some things that have happened

some of the things that caused my to be sad were these things: 11/26-The puppies just left yesterday ,and now Julie is leaving because she pissed in my dads bed again

12/19- my mom is screaming at me about my grades and saying she is going to put me in burnett at the start of next year and all I can think is why don't I just kill myself because my grades won't matter if I'm dead I mean yeah they would be upset for a while but it would eventually wear off and then they will go back to not caring about me because I won't matter , I'll be dead.nobody really cares about me its just an act , they pretend to be my friends but if something were to happen to me they obviously wouldn't care

given the fact that julie is my 10 month old hyper puppy i was really sad that she was going to leave but she didnt but now she actually is leaving forever.and Burnett is my neighborhood school ,the kids that go there are some of the people i never want to ever see again.Because of these things i started cutting / slicing up my left arm and upper thighs just to make myself feel like i was alive ,to make myself feel wanted by at least myself