My Life

My suicide note

Yes, I like  every other  serious self-harmer out there wrote a suicide note.i wrote it one night when i was feeling particularily lonely so here it is:

My loving parents,If you are reading this all i can say is that im sorry i couldnt be the best child that any parent could want and i;m really truly sorry i didnt and wont ever turn out to be the perfect kid that every parent wants . i just want you to know that you did the best you could and that none of this was your fault.

Gabby,I'm sorry i had to leave you like this ....

Rachel,You were the one that knew the most about the situation  but even though this is true i want you to know that there wasnt anything you could have done to help me, I was just way too depressed . I will meet you after you die but please dont come see me too soon okay?, i will be safe for now .p.s yes you can tell my parents about my end of the secret .

My "friends" from school , Some of it was your fault but i did care about some of you but knowing that not all of you really cared about me hurt a lot.

My teachers, It wasnt becase of too much homework or the stress of school its just that i couldnt  remember anything you taught me to save my life.

Coach Lisa and the Lady Diamonds,You tried to help me get better and i trired the new ways of doing things but i just could'nt seem to do them when the time came to use them.

And to anyone else who wasnt mentioned that even cares, i'm sorry but its not and was never your fault.

It's Not You ,It's Me.

-Lauren K

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This was the suicide note i wrote back in about late agust 2012 .  I feel better about certain things now that i didnt then.