The Ride

CHAPTER 13: Don't Do It Again

BELLATRIX

Once he finished telling me all of that, I didn't know what to think, to be honest.

It's not that I am second guessing in wanting to be with him and I'm not trying to judge him but, what he just told me was in a way not what I expected.

I was so afraid that he was doing the same kind of business dealings like his family did and had gotten most of them put away in prison or killed.

Not that what he's doing isn't a bad thing but, I'm also really and that he isn't into the dealings his family were. The lesser of all evil, if you want to call it.

Something inside of me told me also that he didn't have to tell me what he just did but was happy that he had because he truly does love and care about me.

I know that deep down inside of him, he isn't a bad man and I do feel safe with him.

Two weeks have passed by since then and every day I have been seeing less of Cyran because he had started working more on the new clubhouse he was having built just outside of town.

Although I understand what he is doing and that he is caught up in making sure everything is going good over there, it still is a bit sad to not be able to spend as much time as I would like to.

Luckily, I have been keeping myself busy throughout the day with working more on some ideas I had for some tiny homes and am trying to put together enough sketches to make up a portfolio of some sort and show it to Angelyne and Lyna.

I so far have a few good ones and am focusing on adding a few more details and specifics on the 3D models I've created.

Today, I have been trying to get a hold of Cyran to see if he would be able to go out with me to dinner tonight and take a break.

Normally he's real good at at least messaging me but hasn't said anything. So at this point, closer to dinner time, I'm just not knowing where he is and if he's alright.

I've even tried contacting Tony and he mentions that he hasn't seen him for a few hours now.

I won't begin making assumptions and thinking things I shouldn't be. However, this is hard. What if he's dead? What if he's hurt? I was becoming more and more worried each and every minute that passes by.

Angelyne and Lyna left a few moments ago to go out on a date and I just sat on the couch a little bit longer and while looking on my phone, seeing what food I could have delivered, I heard the front door open up and in walked Cyran carrying a bouquet of flowers.

"Hey baby." He tells me.

I can't explain how suddenly my emotions went from being worried to being upset with him so fast, but I was not afraid to tell him how I felt.

"Is this your way of apologizing?" I asked him, calm at first.

"What?" He asked.

"Why haven't you called or messaged me?" I asked as I stood up with my arms folded over my chest.

"Seriously??" He asks agitated a bit.

"What do you mean seriously?!" I asked him. "I was worried about you."

"You sure that's the REAL reason?!" He states while rolling his eyes then sets the flowers down onto the counter on the breakfast island.

"Yes. It's the REAL reason. Believe it or not, I'm nothing like other women! I actually give a shit about you and was worried that you might have been hurt or dead!" I snapped while walking past him towards the backyard to get some fresh air and try to calm myself down.

I couldn't look at him at the moment and I started to think that maybe I was overreacting but at the same time I couldn't believe he said that just now.

Just a brief moment later I felt him wrap both his hands touch the top of my shoulders and kissed the side of my neck. But I shrugged away a bit.

"I know you are busy with things. I do, okay? I get that. But at the same time, I need for you to understand that when I don't hear from you, even once in a day, especially because of what you do, I will get worried. I mean, I always am worried of whether or not you are going to back hurt or not at all. And I know that I signed up for this, in a way. However, you need to understand at the same time that I need you to take a moment to tell me you are okay or are on your way." I began rambling.

He looks down letting out a breath and shaking his head before looking back at me.

"You're right. I'm sorry. I should have contacted you and message you and I'm sorry I assumed your intentions of why you snapped at me was because you were trying to accuse me of being with some other girl or something. And I know I haven't been spending much time with you as I used to before starting this new clubhouse build but, I want to make it up to you." He tells me.

He begins walking closer to me slowly and soon enough is close enough where I can feel his breath.

"Don't. I want to be upset with you." I try and tell him while pushing him away but don't he is not budging.

He gets even closer and traps me between his arms as he placed his hands onto the wall he has me back up against.

"But I already said I was sorry." He started as he leaned in close to my neck and started placing gentle kisses before kissing his way to my lips.

"Don't do that again." I tell him.

"Promise." He says against my lips before kissing me.

Not that I completely forgiven him but this sure is a real good start.

Next chapter will be posted soon! :)