TALES OF EDEN

I'm a Junkie

I'm a junkie
But I promise it's going to be different.
Just you wait and see. I'm locking it down!
I'll do what's right, even if it's not my right.
I'll see the flags on time, no matter the colour.
I'll let my guard down and put his manhood first.
I'll do all of that.
Anything so I could stop using this shit!

You know what I'm talking about.
The same shit that has fuelled the hate of narcistic leaders
The same shit that has killed superstars over the years
The same shit that has ensured generational hurt
The same old shit that fuels hate speeches, bullying, psychos
That SHIT!

I try. I swear to God I try to stay off
But I tell you, it's the voices!
The damn voices in my head!
They just keep clicking and cackling and cocooning traumas
till they manifest in some erectile or mamelon form and devour my happiness.
Snatch the shit out of my happy ever after! Can you imagine that?
But you see I thought this time would be different

Look, I know what it looks like.
You're thinking I should know better by now.
You ask yourself how I do it? Stay alive?
You want to know what happened to being shy the second time after you get bit?
Well scratch that. I'll just say out loud what you're thinking down low.
I'm a junkie
I'm a pain junkie.

Eden...