gym class - billie eilish

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cw: pills and suicide attempt.

a few days went by and billie and i didn't talk. she didn't come to school either. i texted her but i was left on read each time, so i stopped bothering. until one day, as soon as school ended, billie texted me saying "come over.". she didn't explain why or anything like that. i just assumed she was horny or whatever but i missed her, so i went anyway.

i texted billie when i was outside and she opened the door. her hair was a mess, her eyes were bloodshot, her clothes were dirty and somehow she was still pretty. i walked in and we went to her room. it was still red, but this time the wall had writings on it, such as "i wanna end me" and "i wanna drink poison", and stuff like that. billie sat down on the bed and said "don't read what's written on the wall". "sorry" i said and looked back at her. i sat down next to her and we sat in silence for a few minutes.

"i took some pills.." billie confessed. "how many?" i asked, worried. she got up and opened her backpack. all the pill packets were empty. it was like at least a hundred pills. "when?" i asked her, more worried. "like.. when i texted you to come over..?". "where is the bathroom?" i asked her. "in front of my room, why?" she answered and asked me.

"let's go to the bathroom billie" i told her and grabbed her hand. "no.. i- i'm okay.." she slurred out. i pulled her up and asked her before leaving her room "is anyone home?". "noooo" she said and smiled as her eyes closed. i picked her up and dragged her to the bathroom. i sat her down on the floor and pushed my fingers into her mouth, making her throw it up.

she threw up a lot of pills. i think it was most of what she took. then, i put her in the bath and took off her clothes to wash her from all the puke and everything else. she passed out in the bath, while i was washing her hair. i made sure she was still breathing and she was. i didn't know what kind of pills she took but i couldn't leave her alone to go look.

so after i finished washing and cleaning her, i put a towel on the bed and laid her on the bed. i told my dad i'm helping a friend with their school project and it's a lot of work, so i'll stay here overnight. he agreed. i looked in her bag and saw it was sleeping pills, so she'll be sleeping for a long time. i didn't call 911 because i didn't want billie to be mad at me, and i was certain she'll wake up. it was just a matter of time.

i locked the door to her room and sat down next to her, admiring her beauty. her phone rang so i checked who it was. she got a message from her mom asking if everything is okay while her whole family is on vacation. i didn't text back of course. her phone was unlocked, and the "goodbye." note was open. it said "i'm sorry you had to find me like this, but i'm glad you weren't home to stop me. i've been planning this for a while.". i didn't keep on reading because i knew it was probably personal to her and her family.

so i put her phone away and sat there, waiting for billie to wake up. i couldn't sleep either, because what if she stopped breathing in her sleep. hours went by and i kept waiting and waiting. until suddenly, a second before i fell asleep, i saw her eyes open. i rubbed my eyes to see if it was true and she rubbed hers too. "what are you doing here?" she asked me.

"you texted me to come over after school" i said. "i did?" she sounded surprised. "yeah" i said and grabbed her hand. "how do you feel?" i asked her. "what do you mean?" she asked me. "billie.. i know what you did. i was here to save you from yourself." i said. "fuck.." she said. "why am i naked?" she asked me, worried. "i helped you shower, you were covered in your own puke, your hair was a mess and your clothes were dirty" i said.

"you really-?" she said and her eyes turned soft. "yeah i did.." i smiled. she pulled me on top of her and said "i'm really sorry i did that. i was doing shitty after our fight and i just couldn't handle it anymore.. but thank you so much. for everything. really. y/n.". i hugged her and said "anytime billie, i'm here for you". she kissed me and i kissed her back, and we went back to sleep.

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a/n: edited grammar mistakes.