"If by Chance"

Chapter 19

Khun Sam POV.

"Please no,you just told me a couple minutes ago that you're not gonna leave me,you're not gonna broke up with me..please don't do this,we both know how much you love you..and..and I love you too..can-"

"I guess I just love you too much that I even forget how to love myself.."

I try to composed myself while I'm letting those words came out to my mouth..

"Khun Sam.."

"I love you too much Mon,to the point that I almost lose my dignity,I let your dad ruins me..I let him hurt me effortlessly,I let your dad kills me.."

I can't take this anymore,I don't want to leave her this way.

"Please stop..."

"I love you too much that I even forget how to value myself..."

"Khun Sam please,stay with me please.."

"No Mon,maybe it's better this way..let's just accept that we aren't meant to be..maybe somewhere in another lifetime we'll finally free but not in this timeline..."

I hold her hands to the point that she forget that she's hugging her.

I didn't throw a sight on her and even a glance..

I'm numb.

I start the engine as soon as I get inside of the car.

There's nothing much painful than this.

Don't get me wrong,I love Mon.

I love her so much to the point that i'm willing to do anything just for her.

Even giving up on her physically.

Even telling her I didn't love her anymore..I want her to be safe..I want her to live.

I don't have any plans to do this.

But as I was about to leave there house lately as I followed Nop and Dew,my phone vibrates so I look at the screen of it.

My AIS manager texted me,sending me a link of an article-again..

It's an article from the media again,a threat for Mon.

They're blaming her why the company's sales decreases,they throw bad words towards her saying "she's a slut,flirting around CEO Sam to the point that the CEO doesn't mind her business anymore." some says "we should keep that Mon,she doesn't deserve any of CEOs kindness..."some of wasn't against to Mon and me,they're supporters but mostly our haters.

They said they'll do anything to drag down Mon,they even find out that she had a business in London,I don't want that company by ruined just because of the love between us..

I don't want Mon suffer all of the things I've encountered.

I don't want them to threat the person who became my life.

If breaking with her is the only way to protect everything around her including her family and even herself,then I'll do it even if it's against my will.

If this is the only way to keep her safe,if staying away from her will keep her alive even if it kills me time after time,even if it feels like hell I'll do it..

I'll sacrifice the love we had..

I'll fix everything including myself.

I'll make sure that when the right time comes,everything around us will accept us including her dad.