"If by Chance"

Chapter 21

Mon POV.

I Headed upstairs as soon as I heard the news on tv..I shut the door and lock it so that,no one will ever dare to enter..

I headed to my bed and take a sit for awhile,my mind is still processing all of the words Khun Sam said towards the media.

I thought she loves me,how can she ever humiliate me like this??

She's not the same person anymore,I can't even recognize her.

The person I've loved before and continue loving 'til now is so far from the woman that I've seen on the screen..

She seems so cheerful and consistent of those words she have said.

What happened to the promise she made that she'll protect me?

She'll love me infinity.

She'll marry me..

Where all of those promises she have made Infront of me while she's holding my hands so tight with full of assurance.

Where is the Khun Sam that was so naughty and silly,loves to play jokes around and pissed me off eversince our first met??

Where is the Khun Sam who promise me she'll do anything for me?

Is this the way she show off that she finally recovered from the heartaches.

Is this the way she deals with breaking up with me?

Is this the way she let me see that she's not coming back..

I stands up and grab the rope that's tied at the terrace...

If she really meant all of those things she have said and if she really meant on how she humiliates me..

If there's really no chance that she'll coming back...I can't stay alive for any longer, I'd rather die than imprisoned myself here inside this lonely room...dad doesn't cared about me and my feelings after all..it's better this way...

It's better if I just died..

I look for a good position and where I should tied up this rope,I headed to the bathroom and there...

I finally find a perfect spot..

I tied up the rope first and got a chair to stands with later...

After I arrange my setting I got back to my bed and grab my phone..

I dialed Khun Sam's number and hoping that she'll gonna answer it..

It rings but as usual she doesn't answer it..

I try to call her again like 10x times now but she didn't answer any of my calls..

My teardrops are started to flow down again while I'm still building my hoping up...

"One more try,Mon..."

I said to myself and I call her again...this time it's not ringing anymore..

She turned off her phone...surely.

I take a very deep breath and bitterly smile as I close my eyes while my tears are still flowing freely through my cheeks..

Maybe...maybe yes..

She's really consistent of what she said...

She's consistent when she said she doesn't love me anymore...