My Little Dove

Chapter 50

Doves POV:

I go through all the mail as I walked to the kitchen.

"Bucky, Bucky, Bucky, Bucky....me!" I smile

I put his mail on the couch and examine mine. The program.

Either my acceptance or rejection letter was sealed in this paper.

"Buck!" I scream

He slowly stands up, clutching his stomach. "Yeah, Angel?"

"The program" I smile

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Buckys POV:

I slowly walk toward her and kiss her head. "N-No matter wh-what it s...ays, you've accomplished s-so damn much"

She pecks my lips and takes a deep breath. I watch her slide open the seal and unfold the paper.

She looks up at me after she scans over the words.

My eyes drip with anticipation.

"I got in" She whispered, in complete disbelief

"You got in!?" I yell

"I got in" She laughs

I lift her and hug her so damn tight. She squeezed my head and kissed me all over my hair.

Technically, because of my injury, I wasn't meant to lift anything over 50 lbs or participate in any strenuous activity.

That wasn't gonna stop me from swinging her around and making passionate love to her tonight.

"I'm s-so proud of you" I mumble

She holds onto my face and she bursts out crying.

"Aww, don't do that" I whisper, wiping her tears

"That means I'll move away" She sniffles

"H-Hey, hey, hey, y-y-you've p...put your life on hold f-for s..so long. Go live"

She wraps her arms around my neck and sighs.

"But, I'll miss you"

"Don't let me hold you ba...ck"

She smushes my face into a kiss and rubs her nose. "I'm gonna go call Monica and Lena"

I nod and sit down.

I felt the tears coming. "Not now. Please calm down" I whisper to myself. "Please don't have a panic attack"

I realize I couldn't stop. I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't stop clawing at my throat. I couldn't stop myself from panicking.

The more I tried to stop the worse it got. It felt like I was being suffocated. Like I had just run a marathon and someone gave me a straw to breathe out of.

"Bucky? Are you okay?" I heard her call from another room.

"Please don't come in here" I whisper to myself

I wanted to walk away but I didn't have my cane and in this condition, I wouldn't get far.

I don't want her to feel worse than she already does.

She peeked around the corner and ran to me. "Hey, deep breath in"

"D-D-Do..n-t" terrific, now my stutter was worse

"Look at me, baby"

I push her away and cover my head.

"Bucky, you have to breathe slowly"