An Hour Glass Of Memories

Sad headannons part 1848738384

TW: lots of talks about food body ect

-he will more often then not, just not eat. He will literally just stop eating for a while and resume whenever he feels able.

-once someone from outside the league told him that he ate a lot for a guy his age and he took it to heart and refused all meals for at least two weeks because he felt like he shouldn't eat as much.

-he often gives money to they when he upsets them.

+they once all got in a disagreement and they all ignored each their for a while. So when he tried to apologise they ignored him and he ended up feeling super shitty and left money in all of their rooms and just left the house for like three days to make it so they didn't have to see him if they were mad at him.

- some days when he gets upset with someone before he's had his meds and yells at them he will take money out of his 'food jar' and just give it to them.

+he does this because he was always taught giving money to people makes it better.

++when they all get into group arguments he does it for everyone and has no money left for his own food so he just stops eating for a little while until he can pay for food.

-he apologises for everything

-he always has a jar with money in it for holidays; birthdays; special days; ect and never takes money out of it unless it's for one of those things.

- when people buy him gifts he hated it since he always felt like he had to pay them back for it because that's what he was told as a kid,

+he once got a gift from someone and he put it back on their bed with like £80 because he felt so bad for them buying him things.

-he was always taught he did not deserve gifts and that it was just wasting money

-he always bought his siblings gifts with his money but he never really got them himself

-he buys them all Christmas gifts but tells them he doesn't celebrate it so they don't get him anything.

-he never got new clothes as a kid because he was told he had clothes already so now he refuses to buy new clothes.

+they all once went shopping and he just stood outside every shop because he knew if he went in he might want something and he was taught as a kid he wasn't allowed anything when they went shopping. The feeling of being denied something always made him feel selfish for asking for it in the first place so he barely ever asks for anything now.

++even food. He's terrified of asking for food because he's so nervous that they will say no and he will feel selfish again.

-he's been called a brat before for wanting something and he refused to look in a mirror for a month afterwards because he felt stupid for even asking and he didn't want to see that.

-he's also been called selfish for not wanting to give something away because it was special to him and in the end he felt like he was a asshole for not doing it so now when someone asks for something from him he just does it no matter how sad it actually makes jinx

-he has really bad nightmares of past memories and he will literally wake up not being able to breathe and choking on tears.

-his plushies help with his nightmares, especially his bunny.

+he once gave someone his bunny because they were nervous about staying their first night in the base and he didn't sleep properly because he kept waking up screaming and crying with horrible nightmares.

-he thinks he shouldn't ask for things when he wants something because they deserve the money more then him.

+when they go to eat out or go shopping and he sees something he wants he can never bring himself to ask for it and he gets really upset and will sit there trying not to cry because he thinks he doesn't deserve to have new things.

-he feels terrible when they make him something as a gift and he can't accept it since he never learned how to.

- someone got upset with him once when they got him a gift and he wouldn't take it from them so they got mad at him and called him ungrateful for it.

+his heart broke when he got called that and he almost broke down. He gave them £120 in cash which was all he had at the time and locked himself in his room without food so they didn't have to see him because he felt so guilty.

-once he managed to ask the people who took him in before the league for something when they went shopping. He never asked again.

+ he never asked again because when he did ask they shouted at him for it and told him he wasn't allowed anything for a reason and that he should just get over it.

-once everyone ignored him after he said something and got it wrong so he decided they didn't want him anymore and that he needed to make it up to them to make it better so he did their chores for them to make it better.

+he woke up stupid early to start and got like three hours of sleep a night.

++ they weren't meaning to ignore him they were just busy. They became very confused when their chores were already finished before they had even woke up some of the time. They only caught on when he walked in tired out of his mind and passed out of the floor.