Drunk In Love

9. Baker's Eyes (Part 2)

Olivia's POV: 

A week has gone by since I've convinced Spencer to go to rehab. It was a tough conversation to have but he soon realized that he needed to get better for not only his football career, but for himself. Imagine if I saw him at his breaking point. Him drinking profusely, to him eventually overdosing. I couldn't go through with it. 

I loved him too much for him to go down that route. 

And yes, I just admitted that I loved Spencer James. My longtime college crush. 

I am very happy to admit that. As much as I want to say it to his face, now is not a good time. He needs to recover so, by the time he does, I will tell him how I really feel. Plus, he just broke up with Sabrina so I would never want to rush things. 

I arrive to Baker's Bar, preparing for another work day. I see Jordan wiping down tables as I take a deep breath. All the conversations I've had so far with Noah and Spencer finally gave me courage to finally speak up and say something. I feel like a huge weight will be carried off my shoulders if I tell Jordan and my dad. 

So here it goes. But, I'm starting off slow this time. By telling Jordan first. I'll get the easiest conversation dealt with first. 

I walk towards him, with him smiling at me as if he had great news to tell me. 

"Oh Liv! I'm glad you're here! I think I've finally found her! The one!" I chuckle cutely as I can't believe it. 

"Oh really? What's her name?"

"Jane. We've met at Spencer's game. I noticed her when I was getting more food. We talked briefly and it turns out, we had a lot in common. And ever since then, we exchanged numbers and we decided to take things slow." I smile, genuinely happy for him. 

"Wow... that's amazing. I hope everything works out with the two of you." 

He looks at me, noticing I sounded off, which I did on purpose. "Everything ok, sis?" That's when I start to tear up, preparing to tell my truth. I shake my head no, hugging him. He holds onto me, rightfully confused. 

"I'm not ok. I'm really not ok. I feel so bad right now." I say tearfully. 

"Why?" Jordan asks. I let go as we both sit down in chairs. He holds my hand. 

"Because..." I sniffle as I mistakenly cough, trying my best to get the words out. I wasn't lying when I said that Spencer was going to be the easiest conversation. This felt much harder than expected. 

"Hey, sis it's ok. You can tell me anything. I'm right here." I nod as I appreciate his comfort. That's what I loved about Jordan. Even though he can be the cliche goofy, annoying brother, he genuinely cares about me. And I'll never forget it. He was there for me the morning after the party, I'm sure he can be here for me now. 

"Ok..." I take another deep breath. 

"Um... remember, back in college when I told you and dad that I needed help because I was drinking too much?" He nods, remembering. 

"Well, the reason why I was drinking so much is because... I was in pain. Mentally. But physically too for a bit. Um..." I start to pause myself. I apologize as Jordan holds onto my hand tighter. 

"The reason why I was drinking is because..."

"I was sexually assaulted."

Jordan's whole expression changed. From shocked to pissed off. I try to calm him down. "What the fuck Olivia?! You-- you were--"