rndm 7 // universal emotion
In times like this, I feel like the world is mourning with me.
People can't even get happy, even the trees has no choice but to sway in this windy night while rooted in place.
It is like, things have no choice at all.
What I hope for this night, is for my pillow to catch my tear that has no choice but to fall.
And for these 4 cornered walls that became my sanctuary, to guard the noise of my crying heart for the world to hear.
In some particular reason, it feels like the need to escape is the only way.
But tonight, in the times like this I think, being sad is the only emotion.
It is getting scary, being so independent, then suddenly seeking assurance makes you look needy.
When I try to change a thing, it is like a habit of mine to relapse like is an old thing.
So maybe change is just like a no choice type of thing, that maybe, me changing is a default button so I can drew lot of option.
I let the night, to consume my mind with unfavorable thought,regrets and tiredness, so in the morning I'll have the energy to put smile on my face.
It seems like sadness is contagious too, maybe that is the reason why people choose to hide them.
This is why it is easy to write your hearts out, I don't have to think of people judging me.
I don't have to think of how my tears stained the this paper, or how hard I was gripping this pen.
It is just, so sad tonight.
