Polyamorous |B.E|

As The Time Goes By: Chapter 23

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July 2020

*Billie's POV*

That night Zaidee and I drove back. The ride was silent, afraid of what would come out of our mouths.

My eyes focused on the trees and houses as we drove by. Feeling a piece of my heart missing.

I reached my hand out to hold Zaidee's right hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze.

That night, we fell asleep after crying in each other's arms. I knew things would never be the same anymore.

A few months went by and Zai and I stayed together. We'd go on little dates when we could, after class ended.

We still had a group chat with Casey, so every now and then we texted her. She responded, but it just wasn't the same.

She would meet up with us, constantly telling us how much she and Nat missed us. Our time together was still precious.

Natalia was extra clingy with us, and it was only when we would split that you could tell how much this actually affected her.

The only way to take my mind off of things was work. That's what I focused on the most. I drowned myself in school and work to forget everything.

Not noticing it was affecting my relationship with Zaidee.

*Casey's POV*

After that night, I cried myself to sleep everyday. Nat noticed. Of course she did. She was the only one that could make me smile.

Her meaningless comments suddenly meant everything to me.

She was my distraction. Also my number one priority, she always has been.

We met up with Bil and Z for 3 months before everything got hectic and slowly I stopped responding and they stopped reaching out.

Seeing them together brought many emotions. Good and bad. I could tell they tried to not make me uncomfortable, but that didn't matter.

I'm happy for them, truly. They shouldn't feel guilty and I hope they don't.

Keeping up with school has been a task. A very hard task. I'm still passionate about psychology so I kept going to class and paying attention.

I always take notes, something new I've been doing. The green light took me out my trance.

Making my way to a little cafe, I parked the car and went in.

I like coming here after class. I like looking at the people walk by.

Sometimes I forget that I'm not the only human being in the world. There's other people who have their own lives.

They breathe, eat, sleep, work. They function and have their own problems. It could be as small as a stain on their shirt or a mid life crisis.

Nevertheless, they exist. That thought doesn't cross my mind a lot but when it does, I dwell on it for a long time.

I took a sip from my drink, enjoying the feeling. I lose track of time when I come here. I watch the sun start to set and decide it's time to go home.

Jenna came over for a few days. She's been taking care of Natty. As soon as I opened the door, Nat ran over and gave me a hug.

"Mama! I miss you." "I did too baby. Did you have fun?" I asked, stopping my voice from quivering.

"Yeah. Jenna and I drew and played all day." She grinned, showing me her little dimples.

"What'd you draw?" I walked over to the couch as she grabbed the paper.

"Uhm...it's a picture of the peoples I love." Nat carefully walked up and gave me the piece of paper.

I smiled sadly. It was Jenna, Billie, Zaidee, and I. "You did a great job, bug." I praised, holding back tears.

I turned the paper over and set it down. Nat came over and sat on my lap. "Are we ever going to see them again?" She whispered, carefully.

"...I don't know." Jenna placed a comforting hand on my back.

*Zaidees POV*

That night...not only did I lose one of my girlfriends. I also lost my best friend.

Casey and I had known each other since 6th grade. She was my ride or die. In a blink of an eye, she was gone.

Of course I understand why, but I didn't want it to happen. The thing is that I know what's gonna happen next and I'm not sure how I'll cope with that.

Days feel endless now. Time seems stupid. I'm losing track of time. I forget things, at the end of the day all I have is myself.

Time slips through my fingers. I decide to pay it no mind. My life feels like it's on auto pilot. I'm not controlling my body...I don't feel like I am.

Billie is always too busy, that's how she copes. But I need her and our communication just flew out the window.

In the end, I'm still deeply in love with them. And I always will be.

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Short ik😓

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