I LOVE my big brother, but don't tell anyone!

Chapter 7

Isaac

I still couldn't believe it. Sometimes I was seriously stupider than fuck! Why, why, why had I decided to play with fire?! Why couldn't I just have left her bed in the evening? Then this shit would never have happened! I wouldn't have had a fucking hard on!

Okay, maybe I would have been hard. It differs from morning to morning. But this particular time I knew it was mostly because I had slept with the love of my life in my arms.

Ah, you stupid, stupid, stupid ass! I chastised myself repeatedly while waiting in the car for Audrina. Since we only had twenty-five minutes before school started, and the drive took approximately fifteen minutes, I wanted to shout at her to hurry. But considering I was still embarrassed over this morning, I had decided to just shut up, walk over to my car and wait for her there.

I finally heard the front door open, and lifted my gaze. Oh man, now I could use another cold shower! Jesus! Audrina looked hot as hell as she made her way over to my car. She wore a short jean skirt and a red tank top, matching it with red high heels and a couple of golden jewelries.

"I'm so sorry I'm late!" She blurted out as soon as she got into the passenger seat. I started the car. "But you see, just as I –" she began explaining, but I cut her off.

"It's okay, we'll be there on time." I didn't dare to look at her as I drove away.

I could feel her gaze fixate on me, like she was shocked I wasn't mad at her for being late, something that had become a habit. But since I was still uncomfortable with what had happened this morning, I didn't feel like arguing... or talking at all, for that matter.

I turned on the stereo and increased the volume until it almost hurt my ears, hoping it would drown out the thoughts in my stressed-out mind. Apparently, it was too loud for Audie. She immediately lowered the volume while glaring at me. "I'd rather not get tinnitus, you know."

I just rolled my eyes, returning to my annoyed state since my thoughts came rushing back.

We drove the rest of the way without uttering a word to each other. Even though the silence was killing me, I couldn't come up with anything decent to say. I kept stealing glances at her, but she just kept gazing out the window, seeming deep in her own thoughts. I wondered what she was thinking about. But of course, I didn't dare to ask her.

It felt like the distance and awkwardness between us had increased quite drastically these past couple of days. And I hated it. How much longer could I bear to hide my feelings from her?

The answer scared me so much, I didn't even want to allow myself to think about it.

A heavy sigh escaped me as we entered the school's parking lot and I cut the engine of my gorgeous car. As soon as we stepped out, we were surrounded by people. Most of them belonged to our group, but some didn't. They might pretend to be hanging out with the 'popular crowd', a title we so kindly had been given, but they didn't belong. Not really.

Girls of different ages swarmed around me, asking questions about how my weekend had been, how I was, and so on. Some even told me I looked hot and asked if I wanted to do something later. Yes, actually. I did want to do something later. I wanted to do Audrina... but since I couldn't say that out loud, I just ignored them.

Glancing at my Angel, I noticed that Sarah had reached her. They were talking and laughing. Suddenly, Justin made his way over to Audrina and started to talk to her. It immediately annoyed the crap out of me. He had made several advances on her lately, and it bothered me to no end. I wondered what his intentions were. If he went any further than just talking to her, I would have to tell him to back off. It was such a fucking relief being able to blame my overprotectiveness on being Audie's older brother. Such a relief and so fucking wrong. But I couldn't care less. Really. As long as it meant she didn't date any other guy, I was cool with it. A part of me knew what I was doing was wrong, especially to Audie. She didn't know I was doing this. She didn't know I had told my friends to stay the hell away from her. But since she didn't seem to pay them any interest, I didn't let it bother me.