Say You Won't Let Go (Harringrove)

Chapter 13: You want to know what I see?

(Billy has a surprise for Steve) (funny moment)

(Steve: 22 weeks)

Steve just got home from Scoops Ahoy, he was tired, achy, and wanted his man. He walked into their house where he called for Billy, he placed his keys on the coffee table in their living room, where he hung his jacket up on their coat rack, and took his shoes off before heading up the stairs to their bedroom. His boyfriend was nowhere to be found. "Billy!" He walked into their bedroom where he took his shirt off, exposing his bump. "Twenty-two weeks today," Steve said, rubbing his bump, he was feeling the weight of the twins in his back all day, he's been having back pain, which he didn't tell Billy since he didn't want to bother Billy with his pregnancy pain, so, he just didn't say anything to him, because he didn't want the younger male to worry about him.  "I thought I heard you out here." Steve turned around to see Billy......with short hair.   Steve was shocked by what he was seeing. Billy didn't say a word, he thought Steve would've liked it, there was an awkward silence between them until Steve said something to break the silence. "Billy, your hair." the older male finally said, since he had to take a moment to find the words he was looking for since you know, pregnancy brain. "What about it?" The younger male asked, thinking Steve would've liked his hair, and how his lover acted, he seem more surprised to see him without the mullet he always had, which Billy knew that Steve would've been since the last time he saw him was this morning and Billy had the mullet, which the younger male wanted to surprise the older male by getting his hair cut while his lover was at work.

"It's short," Steve replied, he walked over to his boyfriend, kissing him. "You look so good with it." He hugged him. "Thank you, be careful," Billy said. He placed a hand on his lover's stomach. Steve let go of him, and he sat down on the bed, the younger male sat beside him. "You know," the younger male began to speak, "I never tried this before and want to try it now." Steve looked at him, not understanding what Billy was talking about. "What's that?" Steve asked. Billy started to kiss his neck. "Pregnant sex." Steve felt his face turn red. "Wouldn't hurt the twins?" the older male asked, hearing horror stories about women having sex and ending up having their water break while they do it Steve really didn't want to go into labor now, it was way too early. "No," Billy answered back, "Besides, I would go easy on you anyways." Steve looked at his lover. "Can we do this later?" He asked, "I'm really tired." 

"Yes, of course, Steve," Billy replied, His boyfriend got up and walked to the bathroom. "I'm sorry," Steve said. "What for?" Billy asked, pointing his head out of the bathroom, to see Steve sitting on the bed, looking upset. "For not giving you sex." Billy walked out of the bathroom, with a towel in his hand, looking at his boyfriend. "Why are you apologizing?" He sat down next to Steve on the bed. "You had a long day at work, you probably want to sit down and relax, don't you?" The older male nodded. "Yeah, you read my mind." Steve blabbed, "But I gotta cook dinner for us yet."

 "What are you in the mood for?" Billy asked, "Your feet are probably killing you from working today." Steve nodded. "I really don't know what I am in the mood for and my feet are killing me." He replied, getting up from the bed."Oh, good lord." Steve grunted.

"You must be aching."

"Terrible." His lover got up from the bed and began to rub his shoulders. "How does that feel?"

"Good, oh my god, It feels good." Steve huffed, "You're getting the spot where it's been hurting me." 

"Oh, my, why didn't you say that you were hurting? You should've said something, I could've rubbed your back for you." Steve knew Billy was going to say that, he knew his lover was the type that would do anything for him, but Steve didn't want to bother him because he didn't want to be a burden on Billy. "I didn't want to bother you with my pregnancy pain issues, Billy." Hargrove couldn't believe what he was hearing. "Why would you ever think that you would bother me with that?" The younger male asked Steve turned around, he looked like he was about to cry. "I didn't think you would want to touch an ugly fat human like me, and the reason why I didn't tell you I was hurting is that I didn't want to be a burden on you." He started to cry. "Aw, Stevey." Billy said, "You're not a burden, I swear, you're not a burden, I love you, I hate seeing you in pain, You know I'll drop what I'm doing to rub your back or feet." Steve was too busy crying to listen to Billy. "I'm fat and ugly, why is such a good-looking guy like you going out with a fatass like me!" Steve cried.  Billy hated that when Steve talked bad about himself, he's been doing it since he began to show, he hated hearing Steve saying he's fat, which he isn't. 

"Stevey, honey, look at me, You're not ugly." 

He took Steve by the hand and went over to the mirror in their bedroom. 

"Tell me what you see."

"A very good-looking guy with his ugly boyfriend," Steve replied, not understanding what Billy was doing. "You know what I see?"

"What?"

"I see a very good-looking guy, who has amazing hair, a great personality, has beautiful eyes, is very attractive, and is carrying the lives of our twins." Steve was at the break of tears, he knew Billy was talking about him. "See, you aren't ugly, you're far from it, you're very handsome, Steve, it tears me up when you talk down about yourself."

"But after I give birth to the twins, I'm going to get fat," Steve informed, knowing Billy wouldn't touch him if he was.  "So what?" Billy said. Steve was surprised by that reply.  "I'll still love you the same, more to love." Steve smiled at that. "I probably will like you soft too, and if you do have a little bit of weight on you after you have the twins, that will be a reminder of how much of a badass you are, bringing life into the world, not one life but two lives."

"That is true," Steve replied after not saying anything. "What did I do to deserve you?"

"The real question is what did I do to deserve you." 

"Oh, let me tell you, you did a lot that night for me," Steve replied, he looked at Billy. "You ready to have sex now?"

"Oh, boy, am I!" he ran to the bed, Steve laughed at his boyfriend's childish behavior. "Hargrove, you are something else." 

"That's a good thing, right?"

"Yes, it is, I promise." 

Hello! Another update, yes it is! I hope you guys enjoyed it! :) Sorry it's short, it's just i haven't feeling that good today and I tried hard to update today, which I actually have been doing good at today! So, yeah, I'll be updating this book again tomorrow! Chapter 14 anyone? really excited to get another chapter done of this book. :) So happy! I'm also very happy to see it doing so well! It only has a few chapters up and it's over 1k reads!!!! how???

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