LOVING HIM

CHAPTER 18

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Everything happened so fast for Rian.

After refusing to believe everything that Irving said just minutes ago, next thing he knew, he found himself completely surrendering to the older man's wet and mind-blowing kisses like a fool. To add to his horror, the alcohol in his system was one big traitor. It's making him courageous, even bold enough to respond to the exhilarating caresses and it's a shocker even to himself.

When Irving pushed his eager tongue into his mouth and passionately explored its insides, Rian welcomed it fully and let himself get drowned willingly in that incredible feeling of intense pleasure.

Sensing his willingness, Irving fastened up a bit, his kisses getting deeper and deeper, and Rian's whole body burned.

But this is wrong. This is so wrong.

Rian came back to his senses and when he did, he immediately pulled back from the kiss and pushed Irving away from him. "S-stop!" he managed to say. He's shaking all over. His heartbeat was so loud he could almost hear it.

But Irving was a strong man and in a swift movement, Rian was back in his arms again.

"You feel it too. Admit it," Irving whispered, his voice just as intoxicating as how his eyes were at the moment. They stared at each others' eyes and Rian was pulled again into the older man's powerful universe.

But still, Rian tried to fight his feelings. No matter how much Irving's eyes were making him feel, he looked down and averted his gaze, trying to avoid Irving's tormenting gaze as much as he could. Because there was nothing else he could do.

"N-No..." Rian stuttered, his lips and his hands shivering. He tried taking Irving's hands off his waist only to fail again. He sighed hopelessly. "Please..." he appealed, his eyes already brimming with hot tears. "D-Don't do this..."

"Don't do what?"

"This! All of this!"

Irving seemed surprised at Rian's sudden outburst he couldn't answer for a moment.

Rian went on as his desperate tears ultimately started falling. "Lorraine made you think irrationally. You're just confused and I understand. I will forget everything that you said. Just please... stop."

The look on Rian's face was so tormenting it was breaking Irving's heart ten times the more he looked at the younger man. It suddenly made him think for a moment. Did he overdo what he did? He really didn't like seeing Rian cry. He didn't like seeing him in pain. Shit.

Irving closed his eyes, gritted his teeth, and clenched his jaw. The image of Rian's painfully beautiful eyes wouldn't leave his mind and it enraged him even more. Fuck!

He took deep breaths and tried hard to calm himself. He was angry but he needed Rian to understand that what he did wasn't just a spur of the moment kind of thing. His attraction towards him had been going on for weeks now, months even. Irving needed Rian to know that he's worth liking because, even in his introverted self, he's really an incredible person.

Silence.

Deafening silence followed.

Both of them just stayed still- angry, tired, exhausted, hurt.

Irving opened his eyes when he knew for certain that he'd become a little calmer a few minutes later. He again leaned forward and cupped Rian's cheeks gently, looking deeply and regretfully into his eyes, the eyes that he'd gotten accustomed to staring at ever since he could remember.