Steddie oneshots <3

Dysphoria

F2M Eddie

Steve pov:

I hadn't heard from Eddie today nor yesterday. I wasn't sure if he was avoiding me or busy writing a new quest for d&d but usually he'd let me help or tell me the ideas he has. Even though I wasn't invited I decided to go over just to make sure he was okay. I knocked but there was no answer so I walked in. I heard music playing so he was definitely home. I went into his room and saw him laying on his bed throwing a small soft ball up and catching it.
"Eddie?" I say walking further into the room. He sat up and looked at me
"Hey" he says. I walk over and sit on the bed
"You okay?"
"Yeah?..what's up"
"Nothing,you just weren't answering my texts I was just worried you were mad or something"
"No,no just not been in the best mood"
"Why what's wrong?" I ask as he turns off the music
"I just haven't been feeling like..me..it's just stupid dysphoria"
I move closer to him and hold his hand that was fidgeting with his rings
"How come?"
"I just haven't" he sighs "It's stupid anyway"
"No,it's not Ed's. You're just upset. I'm not transgender but I know that it's hard for you but believe me when I say that the first time I met you there wasn't even a second where you looking 'feminine' crossed my mind..I mean when you told me I-I just couldn't believe it. I mean not even Robin noticed,and she has queer friends like you"
Eddie smiled at me with his usual puppy dog eyes "everyone will see you as the same person wether you feel masc or not Ed's. You are a male Eddie, I mean have you even seen yourself? You're so handsome"
"Yeah..right"
"I'm serious Eddie. I wish you could see yourself the way I see you even if it was for a split second. I mean sure,
nobody's perfect,no one has their dream body or the perfect image."
I began brushing my hand through eddies hair. Tucking some pieces behind his ear.
"You wanna be a male,that's how you define as perfect. That's how you see perfect in your way and let me tell you now. That you are perfect in every way. Alright? So just because you feel dysphoric doesn't mean me,Dustin,
Robin. Anyone,will love you any less. No matter who you are. Got it?"
Eddie's smile grew bigger making me smile also
"I must say I'm flattered" Eddie says "thanks"
"It's okay,just next time tell me so I can cheer you up and see your beautiful smile" I say before pressing my lips against his.

**************************
Soooo,this was quiet personal because as a trans male there's barley a day where I feel remotely comfortable in my own skin. Being trapped in the wrong body is so difficult because you just can't do anything about it and it's hard to accept the fact that you will never stop feeling this way,Dysphoria is permanent,it'll always be there and it isn't easy to deal with.
Love y'all -Cole :)