Runaway (little club)

Chapter 32

Raven pov
Leo had called.

Yep you heard that right. Leo, the guy who choked me and called me a murderer. The guy who accused me of killing one of my friends. He called me.

I was just as shocked as you. Kelly and me were sitting in the crown room. Jace and star were sleeping and we had been talking quietly. When the call happened. He wanted to come over and speak with me.

Only me. Kelly was trying to convince me to not go alone.

"Raven, look I know you okay? I want you to be safe but more importantly I want you to make the better judgement. I want you to...know what your doing." She argued again, still sitting on the floor staring up at me as I paced. I shook my head again as I groaned in annoyance.

"I don't even know what to do." I told her.

"I think I should go. As your friend I don't want to say this in a mean way but...I'm worried Leo is going to cloud your better judgement." She told me honestly. I sighed, I couldn't argue with her. She was entirely right. Even after everything, I still had feelings for Leo. I never stopped having feelings for Leo.

"I just-" I started but I couldn't find the words to use. The doorbell rang suddenly. My eyes nervously went to Kelly as we stared at each other for the longest time. A knock car in the door and that's when I knew one of us had to go open it.

"I'll go." I told her. I could tell she didn't want to argue with me but part of me wanted her to.

Nervousness flooded through me as I made my way towards the door. I was anxious. What could he want? What did he want to say to me? I had no clue. I just hoped he wouldn't come to murder me.

No, this is Leo we're talking about. He's not going to kill me. He wouldn't do that...

Shaking my head once again and trying to ignore the thoughts flooding my mind I walked over to the door once again.

Everything felt like it was in slow motion and I couldn't think anymore. Next thing I knew I was at the door, twisting the knob.

It opened.

Curly red hair.

Deep blue eyes with bags underneath.

Messy clothing.

Dirty shoes.

I swallowed the lump in my throat as my eyes went back up to his hair. It was messy, not like how he usually kept it. It was sticking up everywhere. God, the things I would do to run my fingers through it.

His eyes, he had been crying. They were puffy and red. He hasn't been sleeping well. It was obvious. The things I would go to be able to hold him close to me and tell him it was okay.

His clothes, they were raggedy. He looked like trash but I still wanted every inch of him. I wanted him. I needed him. I know it's wrong.

He told me I killed Carly without evidence or proof. He told me he had to leave. He left me. He left Carly. Twice, he left Carly twice. He was a terrible influence but I guess I wasn't any better. Part of me was whispering I should've left this to Kelly.

"Leo..." I found myself whispering. He stared down at me. He sniffled but it was only cause he had been crying. I tried to speak but nothing came out. There were things I wanted to say. Things I should've said. But I said nothing.

"Raven..." He copied me. Leaving unsaid words between us. I didn't know what to say.

"I should've let Kelly do this." I muttered, knowing he heard me.

"I-I'm glad it's you." He mumbled. My eyes went up to see him finally. He was staring right back at me. There were so many things I wanted to do. I wanted to punch him. I wanted to hurt him. But I knew I wouldn't do it. I would never have the strength to do it.

"Why? Kelly is more reasonable." I responded. My throat closing up. I might sound pathetic and that's not how I wanna come across but I just- I just don't know what to do. I don't know or understand what he does to me. But I hate it.

"Why are you here?" I tried to sound strong but I failed...miserably. He let out a breath before averting his eyes from mine.

"I wanted to-" He stopped. He didn't seem to know what brought him here either.

"I-"

"I should've blocked you from ever contacting me." I stated. I watched his face fall, the light that was once in his eyes it went away. It dimmed. It almost broke my heart to see. Almost.

"What do you want Leo? Be honest with me and don't bullshit me." I hissed. All the anger I felt was back. I was upset. Screw that j was furious with him.

"I want- I want to see my kids." He came up with some fake excuse. I could see it in his eyes. He was lying to me.

I shoved him. I pushed him out the doorway and I walked out, closing the door behind me.

"Leo, I said don't bullshit me. Why are you here?" I yelled, trying not to raise my voice too much. I didn't want to wake the kids.

"Raven I-"

"Don't speak if you're going to lie to me." I told him. He stopped. His eyes never leaving mine now.

"I don't want to fight Raven." He whispered tiredly.

"Then what do you want? Because I refuse to stand outside and argue with you. It's pissing me off-"

"You. I want you Raven."

My heart rate started to increase.

My head started to pound.

We stared at each other for a couple seconds. I have never felt this...vulnerable in front of someone before. Ever.

He took a step forward.

I took a step back.

My back hit the door, as he was only inches away from my face. We stared at each other for the longest time.

His eyes flickered towards my lips. I breathed in deeply. My hands itching to reach out and touch him.

Touch him everywhere.

"Is this-" He started, before he moved closer. His lips only a centimeter away from mine.

"Is this okay?" He asked. His voice filled with concern. He wanted my consent. My breathing got heavier as I didn't respond.

But my hands did.

I reached out finally. My hands found their way to his hair as I pulled him closer to me.

"Yes." I whispered.

I might've robbed you guys of...your kiss...it's called tension I had to do it.