☆☆ ♡ 𝓱𝓲𝓰𝓱 𝓼𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓸𝓵 ♡ ☆☆ ~ 𝓷𝓸𝓪𝓱 𝓼𝓬𝓱𝓷𝓪𝓹𝓹 𝔁 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻

addicted to you

y/n pov
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"i really can't believe the shit Noah pulled tonight. he has the nerve to try to beat up the guy i'm dancing with? then proceeds to call me 'his girl' mind you this was after the fact that he kissed Caroline and we argued under the gazebo," i rant to my mom and mills who are sitting on my bed with a bunch of snacks, "i mean like, i couldn't possibly be the horrible of a girl that he had to go canoodle with Caroline right" i ask looking up at them.

they both look extremely shocked at the words that had just come out of my mouth.

"um ok how about me and mills will go get some McDonald's, and u stay here, shower and wind down, that sound good?" my mom asks. u just sigh and nod my head.

while they're gone i have the house to myself, hunters staying the night at his friends house, they're probably playing Fortnite or some shit.

i decide to hop in the shower. i put my music on and let the hot water wet my hair and run down my bare back. i do my normal shower routine and hop out.

i hear the doorbell ring repetitively 'of fucking course' i say to myself. i put my bathrobe on go cover my naked body and take the towel out of my hair.

i hurriedly rush downstairs to the front door to see noah standing there.

"what do you want noah?" i ask with a tone. i wasn't in the mood to see him right now.

"to apologize, look y/n i know i was a total doucheba-" he starts to say but i cut him off.

"noah i really don't want to hear it ok? we obviously can't be together. i think it would be best for the both of us if we just stopped trying for eachother. we're never gonna work." i say looking into his gorgeous eyes seeing the expression change in them i know what i said hurt him, but it's for the best.

"y/n you don't understand. I'm addicted to you. you're like my fucking drug. I'm not gonna stop trying to make us work. i know I'm the one who fucks up but I'm trying to get better. for you. and i know you probably fucking hate me now but i don't care. you're the only thing i want. i want you to be mine and mine only. i want to be the only guy to touch you, to kiss you, to hug you, ok? because i fucking love you. I'm in love with you y/n." Noah says in a firm tone, his eyes widening when he realizes he just confessed his love to me. I'm utterly shocked to say the least. he loves me? Noah fucking schnapp loves me? thats something i would've never thought i would hear in my lifetime. although i am ecstatic Noah loves me, i don't know if i can trust him enough to try again. i don't know if i can handle being hurt by him again.

"noah, i love you too, i really do, but i just don't think i can trust you enough,for us to try again." i say looking in his eyesseeing his facial expression drop.

"but y/n i feel like i need you-" he states as i cut him off.

"than stop needing me. noah i can't have you needing me. find someone else to need." i say to him calmly looking down at my feet, but the truth is i want him to need me. but pushing him away is what I feel is best for us right now.

"i don't want to fucking need anyone else but you. that's what you don't get y/n. i want you ok? i don't want any other fucking girl but you."he says lifting my face to look him in the eyes

"you're saying all this shit right now, but what's gonna happen when you go back to Caroline" i ask getting sorta irritated.

"oh fuck me y/n, are you seriously bringing Caroline into this?" he asks sorta laughing with an angry tone. did he really just ask that? yes I'm bringing fucking Caroline into this. i mean he always runs back to her.

"yes Noah, as a matter of fact i am." i say coldly.

"you can never seem to forget, can u, you're just gonna keep bringing this shit up huh?" he says rolling his eyes exhaling

"you're acting like you're fucking innocent, like Caroline is nothing to you, but you and me both know that she's so much more to you than you fucking say she is. that's why you keep going back to her. and if that's the fucking case Noah why are we doing this. why are we fighting over a relationship that's never gonna fucking happen, because you are pathetic and you're gonna do the same shit over and over again." i say finally snapping. Noah turns around without saying another word and heads for his car. i instantly regret what i just said.

"wait- fuck noah come back" i say trying to get him to turn around but he doesn't budge. he just continues walking out of my driveway. he gets in his car and drives off.

fuck.

Noah's pov
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"you're acting like you're fucking innocent, like Caroline is nothing to you, but you and me both know that she's so much more to you than you fucking say she is. that's why you keep going back to her. and if that's the fucking case Noah why are we doing this. why are we fighting over a relationship that's never gonna fucking happen, because you are pathetic and you're gonna do the same shit over and over again." she yells at me. a relationship that's never gonna happen? i thought she liked me? she thinks I'm pathetic? there's so many thoughts going through my mind right now.

i turn around and start walking back to my car. everything i said to her i meant. i needed her, i loved her, and i wanted her.

"wait- fuck noah come back" she says trying to get me to turn around. i can't. she doesn't want me. i can't chase her.
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hey guysssss. another chapter done. muah!!

word count:1066 words !!