☆☆ ♡ 𝓱𝓲𝓰𝓱 𝓼𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓸𝓵 ♡ ☆☆ ~ 𝓷𝓸𝓪𝓱 𝓼𝓬𝓱𝓷𝓪𝓹𝓹 𝔁 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻

one step forward, three steps back

as i try to pull away from noahs grip around my waist he stops me and whispers in my ear.

"can we talk, please?" when he whispers in my ear it sent shivers down my spine. i know i shouldn't accept his offer considering I've already given him so many chances, but i really want to work things out with him.

"sure, i guess" i tell him with a tone.

with that he walks me over to the gazebo. we sit there as the silence has fallen upon us, you can hear the faint noises of music coming from the gym.

"why'd you do it?" i ask softly, finally breaking the quiet between us.

"are you really gonna ask me that y/n? you should be able to figure it out on your own." he replies with quite the attitude, looking at everything but me.

"can u at least fucking look at me when we're fucking talking Noah, you're the one who wanted to talk this out, you're the one who kissed Caroline like a douchebag again, you're the one who keeps leading me on." i state coldly looking him dead in the eyes.

those eyes of his. i can't seem to get enough of them. i see a future with him when i look into his eyes. he can hurt me over and over again, but it won't matter. I'm in love with Noah Schnapp.

"i don't know y/n okay. is that the shit you fucking wanted to hear? i don't fucking know why i kissed her." he says blankly looking me in my eyes.

"i swear noah it's like one step forward, and three steps back with you." i sarcastically chuckle breaking the deep eye contact with him.

"what the fuck is that even supposed to mean y/n?!" he shouts at me, getting up and pacing back and fourth, clearly annoyed and irritated.

"it means that as soon as we start getting somewhere in our fucking relationship, you fuck it up and we have to start all over again." i stand up shouting back.

he rubs his temples and face roughly. "i fucking ruin it? me? come on y/n don't pull this shit. you know damn well the relationship ruining is mutual" he laughs.

"are you fucking kidding me? like you're actually joking right? oh shit that's rich. can you explain to me how i fuck up the relationship?" i yell slightly at him

"you think i don't see the way you and Louis look at each other? you two obviously have something going on" he yells louder raising his voce above mine.

"are you actually fucking okay? what the hell is wrong with you Noah, what type of person do you see me as? do you really think that in all seriousness i would have a thing with Louis. Millie is one of my best friends, and Louis, he's like a brother to me. at this point your trying to get anything you can on me to make you seem like less of the bad guy here. I'm not doing this shit." i say and try to walk away.

Noah then grabs my wrist pulling me back. he cups my cheeks and roughly kisses me. his hands wonder my body as his lips make his way down to my jaw.

"Noah stop. not right now. not after the shit you pulled tonight." he lets go and i walk away.

i hear him mumble "shit!" under his breath.

Noah's pov
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she walks away from me. i see her make her way back into the gym where the celebration is being held. i don't know why i keep ruining my chances with her. it's like no matter what i do i can't seem to keep her.

but all i really want is her. she's perfect to me. she's the only girl i want. i love her.

I'm in love with y/n l/n

i know i fucked up big this time. i can tell by the tone in her sweet voice, and the expression in her beautiful eyes that she's getting tired of me. she getting tired of my bullshit and i don't blame her.

i decide to go back to the gym because i was tired of wallowing in my own self pity.

when i go back into the gym my eyes immediately wonder to her. she's dancing with Adam. Adam Rodriguez. Adam used to be a real good friend of mine. we would always get into these little arguments with each other, and one day it got a bit heated and we got physical. we haven't been friends since. actually you can call him one of my enemies.

when i see him dancing with her i immediately feel a burst of jealousy course through me. i see her eyes look at mine as she gets closer to him. a bit too close for my liking.

i clench my jaw and continue to watch her as she rests her chin on his shoulder, as she laughs and smiles at the things he says.

that was supposed to be me she's dancing with. it should be me she's laughing at. she should be my girl out there.

but i fucked up. i made yet another fucking mistake.

i continued to watch the way her body moved as she swayed to the music, the view was perfect. the only problem was that she wasn't with me. she wasn't mine at the moment. but i wanted her back. i wanted her all to myself. i wanted to be the only guy she kissed, the only guy she hugged, the only guy she danced with, and the only guy she wanted. but now she's out there getting all touchy feely with Adam.

and the worst part about it is that it's my fault. if it weren't for me this wouldn't be happening. i wouldn't be standing against the wall of the gym watching my girl dance with another guy.

narrator pov
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as the night comes to an end the dj announced he will be playing the last song of the night. the slow song you dance with your partner to.

noah is standing up against the wall fists clenched as he sees y/n and Adam dancing with each other.

as the song comes to an end Adam decides to make his move. he lifts y/n's chin gently and softly presses his lips against hers. he pulls away and she smiles at him.

Noah immediately starts walking towards them

he grabs adam by the collar of his white dressy button up shirt.

"Noah what the fuck are you doing?" y/n asks him concerned.

"what the fuck adam. that's my girl dawg. why the fuck are you kissing her?" Noah shouts as a group of students gather around the three.

"I'm not your girl Noah let him go." y/n shouts at him

those words hit Noah like a brick. that's when he knew he lost her. she was no longer his.
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hey slay queens. i hope you enjoyed this chapter !!!!

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