I narrowed my eyes. "You should still wake me up," pagrereklamo ko pa.
Natawa naman siya nang mahina. "I should listen to your brother that time. You look so tired from taking care of me and your mom," he worriedly said.
Napaupo naman ako at saka hinawakan ang dalawa kong pisngi. "Do I really look tired?" I asked .
"Yes," he answered as soon as I asked.
Napayuko naman ako. Hindi naman ako nakakaramdam ng pagod pero bakit mukha akong pagod? Maybe because I always told myself that I should take good care of them? That there's only me that would take good care of them? Or maybe because I always think that I am not tired that I still could do a lot of things?
"No matter how many times you tried to tell yourself that you aren't tired, your body still won't cope up. You should rest," he said while looking at me like I am foolish.
Hindi na ako nagsalita pa at tumitig na lamang ako sa higaan ni mama. Hindi ko alam pero bigla na lamang nag-flash sa utak ko lahat nang pinagsamahan naming dalawa, lahat ng kulitan, 'yung mga times na nagagalit siya sa akin, 'yung times na pinagtatanggol niya ako. Everything seems like a film strip in my mind with full of pictures.
When I close my eyes, all I could see was her face. I didn't know that I was holding on for too long that my body couldn't cope up.
"Akesia..." I heard Marvin called my name.
I open my eyes and looke at him. "Yeah?"
"Look," he said.
Napatingin naman ako sa kung saan siya nakatingin at nakita ko naman na walang pinagbago kay mama. However, when I look at her hand, I saw his finger moved!
Kaagad naman ako na napa-upo at saka pinindot ang button sa uluhan ni mama. Marvin walked slowly towards us as well and when he reached the foot board of the hospital bed, he held onto it.
Kahit na gumagalaw ang daliri ni mama hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na hindi tingnan si Marvin dahil hindi pa naman siya talaga nakakapaglakad ng mabilis at medyo stiff pa ang kaniyang mga tuhod.
"Isn't that a good news?" he asked, looking at him, he really is having a hard time walking.
I nodded my head slowly. "Yeah," I answered, smiling while my eyes were teary.
Ilang sandali pa ay dumating na sina Senior Jian. Like what they did when Marvin opened his eyes they give my mom a brief check-up and after that, Senior Jian told me that she'll open her eyes whenever she finally had an energy to open her eyes. He also said that we don't have to worry about her anymore for she is no longer in danger and all her vitals were stable.
Halos manghina ang tuhod ko nang makalabas na si Senior Jian. Thankfully, nakahawak ako sa higaan ni mommy. Hindi ko na rin naman naiwasan na maluha.
"Thank goodness..." I murmued. "Thank you for waking up... mom..."
Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakatulog at nakapunta sa higaan ni Marvin. When I asked him how, Marvin told me that when I fell asleep crying, my brother come.
I pick up my phone and dialed his number.
"Hello?" he said on the other said of the line. "KeCy?" he added.
"Brother..." I murmured, I bit my lip trying to stop myself from sobbing.
"Napaka-iyakin mo talaga," he said.
Parang 'yung luha ko bigla na lang umurong. Nakita ko naman na napakimbig si Marvin nang mapatingin sa akin.
"I was so worried about you but then I think it was all for nothing. You can tease me but you can't see me when I am awake? Are you really trying to hide from me?" inis ko na sabi.
