Moonlight and You

05

A loud sound woke me from my sleep. Seriously, five in the morning there's already someone calling me?

Padarag kong inabot ang cellphone ko upang sagutin ang tawag. "Hello?"

The line remained silent. "Is this a prank call? For pete sake, it's only five in the morning. Wala ba kayong awa sa katawan niyo."

"A-ashaia." A deep and husky voice echoed in my ears.

It's Fourth. I know it was his and I wasn't wrong. This voice used to be my favorite music. "Who is this?" I lied.

"Baby." Muli nitong tawag sa akin. Is he drunk?

"I said who the hell is this?" Kunwareng irita kong tanong.

"It's me, Fourth."

"What do you need from me? Are you drunk?" Pag maldita ko sa kanya. My heart was pounding like crazy, not gonna lie.

"Just tipsy."

"Ano ngang kailangan mo sa akin? Hindi ba halata na nakakaistorbo ka ng tulog?" He did disturb my sleep but I don't know why I'm liking it right now.

Marupok ka Ashaia.

"I miss you, I miss you so much Ashaia." I heard a sob on the other line. I didn't respond and continued listening.

Why is he.. crying?

"I hurted you. I want you to be happy but it's hurting me seeing you happy with someone else." Patuloy itong umiyak, parang batang nagsusumbong sa kanyang ina.

"G-gusto kitang bawiin, I want to pursue you, kasi mahal kita, mahal na mahal pa din kita. T-tangina naman kasi, bakit ikaw pa ang kapalit." He continued sobbing.

"What do you mean?" Naguguluhan kong tanong.

"S-sana, kapag maayos na pag ayos na ang lahat, s-sana a-ako pa din." His sobs make my chest heavy. Hearing him crying hurts me. "I want to have you again, but I can't afford to see you in danger again."

"Anong sinasabi mo? You're just drunk right?" Kinakabahan kong tanong.

He answered me with his sobs. Nagulat ako ng biglang bumangon si Aiyanna. "Mommy who's that?"

Agad kong ibinaba ang tawag. Did he hear Aiyanna?

"Nothing baby, go back to sleep, it's still early." I kissed her forehead and tucked her in bed.

Fourth words echoed in my mind. "I want to have you again but I can't afford to see you in danger again."

I hugged my daughter trying to calm myself. He's just drunk, lasing siya. Do not assume things.

Hindi ako muling nakatulog. Napagpasyahan ko na bumangon na. Malamig na ihip ng hangin ang sumalubong sa akin ng buksan ko ang bintana sa sala.

May ilang tao na sa labas, may nagwawalis, nagdidilig at may mga nagpapa araw sa bagong sikat na araw. They say it was morning vitamins.

I closed my eyes and hugged myself. He said it, he still loves me. Kung kailan desidido akong magsimula ng bagong buhay saka naman magpaparamdam.

Paano kung wala lang siyang magulo? What if it was another bet again? Damn, I shouldn't trust him again.

Drix and Tani visited us. Iniwan namin si Tani at Yanna, nagpasama ako kay Drix upang tingnan ang lupa namin sa may bayan. "Anong desisyon mo?"

Tanong nito habang nasa tricycle kami. "Furniture nalang Drix, para hindi sayang ang galing ko sa pagguhit."

He leaned on me and rested his head on my shoulder. "Oh, anyare sayo Ryu Aldrix?"

"Miss ko na." Pag mumuktol nito habang naka sandal pa rin sa akin.