Under The Mask. [Sal X Travis]

Chapter 4: Red & Black

[SH in this chapter.]
Both Travis and Sal made it back to their homes. Travis walked home alone because Sal was the first to make it back to the apartment. Travis thought his day was finally gonna be normal, well, thats what he was thinking until something else went into his mind.

[ Travis' POV ]
I made it home finally. I didn't have to deal with Sal. He was bugging me with a couple of questions, but I didn't mind it for some reason. As I made it home, I changed my shoes into my inside shoes and set my bag next to the shoe rack like how it was this morning. I took out a couple papers from my classes. We had some simple 'all about you papers.' Dumb. We're not 7 or 8. But we had to do it one way, or another.

I grabbed my papers and then went to the kitchen. I looked on the table and there was a note.
"Hey Travis, I left early to get more groceries. There's a snack in the fridge for you. See you when I get back. ~Love mom" I walked over to the fridge and saw a strawberry shortcake. A weird thing to eat after school but oh well. I grabbed my snack and papers and went to my room.

I was bored and I wanted to text my mom if she was alright but I didn't bother. I just worked on my papers until I got endless thoughts about Sal. I was close to taking his mask off. I just wanted to see his face. At this point I could either force it off of him but I didn't want to for some reason, or I could become friends with him more and more, which just sounds dumb to me. Larry would interfere me and Sal, if he would get the chance. Plus, again why would he be friends with me?

I didn't know what I was doing next but when I got done with my work, I got up and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and I had alot going on in my mind.

'Sal will never forgive you. He is just like the others. They do things for you out of pity. You should give up making friends. Every single one is just gonna be the same. Be friends with you, tell you lies, an drop you at the end of everything. Takes advantage of you, manipulate you, and uses you. You'll never find a true friend. Not even a lover. You're just like your dad.'

[⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: SH SKIP IF YOU DONT LIKE]

Then, I looked at the mirror and to my arm. I opened the medicine cabinet, and there...I saw a razor. Without thinking, I picked up the razor and pushed it against my arm, and blood was already dripping down.
I inhaled through my teeth because it hurt. I then began to do a stroke on my arm. It left a fresh scar on my arm. Without hesitation, I did it again. And again. And again. And again. I stopped after about 6 times. I sighed while there was tears in my eyes, but I didn't cry. Yet. I rinsed the razor and put it back where it was. I closed the cabinet and I rinsed my arm with cold water then slowly went to warm. Not too warm where it stun but warm enough for me to rinse off. I dried off my arm and went back to my room. Funny thing is that I didn't even bandage it up.
[END OF THIS ANGST⚠️]

-In his room-
I went on my bed, facing up. I didn't want to bandage my arm because I didn't want my mom or dad to find out I was using it for something I'm not allowed to do.
Rule 3: if founded while doing...this, I would either get something worse then this or I get locked in my room.
I was still thinking about that one thought. 'You're just like your dad.' I wasn't even close to be like him. I bet he never fell in love with a guy. I bet he didn't even deal with this kind of shit. I wanted to tell my mom about whats going on, but I didn't want to hurt her feelings and make her worry.

Plus. I've been feeling like this for a while now. About 4 weeks before school started. I was inhaling through my teeth because I still felt the pain. I got up from my bed and changed out of my clothes into my pajamas. I prayed for that night and went into my bed. I took off my necklace before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes and I had a bad dream begin.