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Zuri POV:

Pulling away from the hug and I look up at Hunter

"Let me kiss you" he pleads looking at me with so much want that I find myself caving in. Grabbing his face I smash his lips with mine and he winces

"Oh I'm so sorry," I say pulling away

"Don't worry about me I can handle the pain" he says grabbing my face and kissing me.

"This is nothing do you know how many boners I had just watching and not being able to touch" He groans grabbing my ass

"You're sick you know that," I say slapping his chest

"Says the girl kissing the guy covered in blood" he grins and I roll my eyes

"Well when you look at me with those eyes it's kinda hard to deny anything from you," I say caressing his busted lip with my thumb

"Is that right? " he says planting a kiss on my thumb

"Okay but seriously we need to head out," I say and he sighs rolling his eyes

"Oh come on I just got to hold you" he whines holding me tighter

"Well I just might have to shoot your foot and act like I was interrogating you," I say teasing him and he scowls

"I think your lover boy over there messed me up enough," he says shaking his hand, and my jaw drops

"Oh my god no," I say feeling to see if his dick is still there

"Now you know very well I still have that" he chuckles and I bite my lip

"Just making sure," I say turning around with a smile on my face

1,2,3 opening the door I see Mark and the men waiting outside

"I didn't kill him," I say looking directly at Mark and he sighs standing up

"Okay then what did you get" Mark scowled at me and I scoffed

"Way more than you fuckers got" I hiss and he strides toward me with a look that could kill

"Zuri let me remind you that I am still in charge so if I was you I would bite my goddamn tongue" he spat at me and I scoffed

"And let me remind you that you lay a finger on any of my team members without my consent then so help me I'll burn sector 8 to the ground the same way you tried to kill yourself that day" I seethe looking him straight in the eyes.

His eyes go empty and the love in them that I once saw fades

"There's a thin line between love and hate. And you just fucking crossed it" he walks passed me and I turn to look at Hunter. He has a small smile on his face and I can't help but feel bad for Mark.

What can I say 'Karma is a bitch'

"Hunter come let's go get you cleaned up," I say walking away

"Yes ma'am, " he says following close behind

~~~~~~~~~3 hours later~~~~~~~~~

Making sure Hunter is cleaned, stitched, and fed I watch him rest on his hospital bed

"Get better we have war tomorrow," I say planting a kiss on his cheek

"I know" he whispers out and I sigh

"I'll go okay,"I say standing up and he nods

Walking out of his hospital room I head back to my bedroom

Opening my bedroom door I walk into my room to see Mark sitting on my bed with his back hunched over

"Sit down" he demands and I slowly walk in sitting down on the couch facing him

"Zuri what the fuck is your actual problem," he says sounding defeated

" I try my very fucking best to make you happy and I fucking worship the ground that you walk on as much as I don't show it but I do. Yet every time I let you in you shut me out and I've been sitting here while you were on the sidelines of his hospital bed wondering what the fuck am I doing wrong. What more do you want huh" he looks up with tears in his eyes

"You fucking own me Zuri. Believe it or not, I still breathe on this earth because you're on it" he says his voice breaking

"I don't want to lose you Zuri it was hard on me the first time so please find it in your heart to at least let me try to be good enough for you that's all I ask. I promise I'll make it worth your while just please" he sniffles looking at his hands

"I want to one day call you my wife. Watch little Sophie and Giulio grow up to be adults with good lives. I want us to grow old together. I just want you. I want us" he says looking at me with pleading eyes

I just sit there staring at him with tears running down my face 

"Say something please," he says standing up and walking toward me

"Please Zuri, you're breaking my heart," he says dropping onto his knees in front of me 

"Say something" he pleads with so much hurt in his face and voice

"We are in this together Zuri just please," he says taking something out of his pants. He brings his hand out revealing a red velvet box and I stop breathing

"Zuri I know this isn't exactly romantic but I just want to prove to you how serious I am," he says with sturdiness

"Zuri please do me the ho-" getting up I walk out of the room not letting him finish

I fucking can't

Rushing into the hallway for some air I run towards the only place that could calm me down

Running up and down hallways I finally reach the door 

Walking into the moon pool I just jump into the water not caring that I'm still in my clothes

Is this how it feels like when you fall out of love with someone? Nothing they say or do makes your heart jump anymore

If Mark 5 years ago went down on his knees and popped the question. I would have been the happiest girl in the world

But now I feel empty and broken stuck between the man I fell in love with and the man I am in love with

When I was a teenage girl all I ever wanted was to have the love people have in the books and I got it but over time things dawned on me

This is real life, real people, real problems and yet nothing feels real

I'm just a chess piece on a board I can't control and Mark just needs to understand that

Coming back up for some air. I stare at the stars

My father would always say your destiny lays within the stars cause that's just how bright you are

Cheesy but looking back that meant everything to me 

He was the first man I learnt how to love and he died so maybe I'm just incapable of falling in love cause in some way I'm afraid to lose 

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