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Chapter 12: Head⛓⛓⛓⛓

I froze. I took it too far. I looked up wide eyed. "I cant let you. You of all people"

Hurt flashed through me. I broke the eye contact and took my hand away from his boxers. Of course why did i think hed want that. From me. I dont even know what im doing. And he knows it. "Im sorry i didnt mean to-"

"Its degrading" he interrupted, "You giving me head. I could never disrespect you like that"

I was still confused. "Its not like that"

"It is with you" he said sternly

"So if it wasnt me-"

"It is you though and i dont want to take advantage of this. I dont want you to loose part of yourself just so i can get a little rush"

"I want to"

His expression changed. He softened. I moved closer in and rested my head on his bulge. He put his hand on my head and rubbed his thumb up and down. He was thinking. I held on to his leg and slowly moved up. When i got to his thigh i looked up at him. "Please" i mouthed. He winced and closed his eyes. He nodded.

I pulled his boxers down. He was right there in front of me. Still just as hard as before. Being this close made me realize i hadn't really taken in how large he was. I don't know whats considered average but i know this wasn't it. It was levels above. I moved my fingers to his base. A vein twitched. I out my tongue over his tip and made swirls and moved my head down until he was all the way in. Or at least what would fit. He didn't taste how i was expecting. He was clean. I didn't taste anything but the saltines of the precum. I still had room for my hand so i grabbed his base to fill the space. He flinched. I paused. He assured me by putting my hair behind my ear. I moved up and down. My head and hand synchronized. I managed to get him deeper down my throat after a few times. It felt. Good to have him that deep. I think i liked it. I started to go faster and deeper. His hands gripped the sheets and he started to moan a little. He was trying to hold it in. I managed to look up and his head was flung back. I could tell by the veins in his neck he was trying hard to hold back.

"Im. Close" he made out, teeth clenched.

I kept going. He put his hand on my head to lead me back. "Yn im gonna cum"

I stayed. I went faster. Seconds later he grunted deep in his chest as his cum filled my mouth. I pulled out trying to keep it all in my mouth. It was salty but not gross. I could hold it down. I swallowed. It continued to drip from his tip to my lips. I licked it clean. He smiled so wide and flung himself back on the bed. After a few seconds he shot back up. He lifted me and slammed me back down on the bed with him. He grabbed my face in both his hands. "Thank you" he kissed me "Thank you thank you thank you" he made out in between kisses. His hair covered my face and got in between our kisses.

"Mhm" i said cheerfully.

He shook his hair in my face giggling. Like a little kid. He was so happy.

"Can i stay the night" i asked. His hands were still on my face. His rings still cold against my cheek.

"Isnt that a given my girl" he answered. I could hear the smile in his voice.

***imagining eddies smile in this chapters got me giggling nd kicking nd squealing***

****also if ur a music while reading kinda person put on apocalypse by cigarettes after sex for this part. I had them on while writing and it was so warm and sweet******

I kissed him again and took a deep breath in. "Then can we try something"

"What is it?" He asked toying with the hair that framed my face. He wasnt looking at me. And i was in no hurry to make eye contact when i asked this.

"Well i know youve already finished. And i dont want sex or anything that intense. I just wanna rest. Can you-" i shook my head and tried to back away. He grabbed my waist and kept me close. He was looking now. He was focused.

"Please go on"

I was picking the skin on my nails. He grabbed my hand and held it in between our chests. I paused staring at his hand in mine. I didnt know how to begin. I felt his eyes watching me and i was afraid to look up.

His cold rings brushed my cheek. "Youre blushing?" He asked in surprise. I kept my eyes down. "Please, yn, the suspense is painful"

I took a deep breath in. "Can i hold you. inside me. while we fall asleep. I just want you there. Its warm. It just feels nice i suppose. I know its silly. I dont know" That was beyond embarrassing but it was true. I craved his thrusts. But a part of me craved his presence. His warmth. More than the urge to finish.

"Hm" he thought out loud. "I think id like that actually. Are you ready to sleep my love?"

"Mhm" i nodded. I was eager for him.

He pulled my pants down and i kicked the rest off. He did so too. He hitched my leg over him and slowly entered me. He went in so smoothly and stopped before it got too deep. Before id want more. I could almost cry. This felt so intimate. I had so much trust in him for this. It was almost too much for my mind to grasp. I never knew this much love and peace could exist at once.

"Goodnight my sweet girl" he kissed my forehead and laid his head back onto the pillow. He pulled a light sheet over us. His hand gently stroked my back. I rested my head on his chest and fell asleep counting his heartbeats.

******did i partially steal a couple sentences from eclipse? Yes. Edward just has a way with words idk man

If you liked this check out my other story I just published. It all eddie smut one shots