The Secrets We Keep (CAMREN)

Chapter 4: Flicker of Hope

Camila's POV

I still couldn't believe what I was seeing and to add to my worry Lauren still hasn't answered me.

"Laur" I say looking at her and waiting for her to speak.

"I-I" she starts to stutter and takes her arm away from me then pulls her sleeve down.

"Don't lie to me Lauren, this is serious" I tell her not breaking eye contact

"And it is none of your business. now I suggest you leave Karla before I kick you out" She tries to threaten but I know she wouldn't dare.

"You won't do it and you know why. Because I'm the only person you trust enough to talk about your cutting problem. So either you talk to me like the Lauren I've known since I was 6 or I have a talk with your parents about you cutting again" I warn her with no room for her to get around it

"You aren't going to leave me alone till I talk to you I assume" She says annoyed that I got my way.

"SO should we talk here or in your room?" I ask giving her a smile even though I know she hates that I got what I wanted.

Lauren's POV

I can't believe I'm being blackmailed into talking to her. Seriously that is something I would do, not the sweet innocent Camila I once knew. But then again it has been 11 months and she isn't the same Camila I knew from when I was younger.

I was dreading having to talk to her because I know she was going to ask the three questions I didn't want to answer. So as we made our way up to my room I started to form ridiculous answers in my mind and hoped that she'd believe me and then leave me alone so I can go back to being in love with her in secret

Camila's POV

We made it up to her room and after we walked in she closed the door and sat on her bed

"Have a seat and lets get this over with" she says not looking pleased

I took a seat next to her and took a deep breath. The last time Lauren and I were in this room together was when I had told her my feelings towards Chris and that day I was nerves but those nerves don't even come close to the ones I feel now. I'm afriad of her answers and I don't think I'm prepared for them.

"Ok well um I guess I'll go for an easy question" I say biting my bottom lip.

"Whatever" she says like she doesn't care

"Why do you hate me so much? I know I kind of messed up the last months of our friendship but I thought we were always girls before bros" And right after I say that I mentally face palm.

"do you realize what you just said? or are you so blind to not notice that you put the bro before the girl. Look I get that you two are happy and all fine but that doesn't mean I'm completely pissed for all the things you did to me before I ended our friendship" She says looking at her hands

"Then why are you pissed at me? because I seriously want to know" I say looking at how she fiddles with her fingers as if ahe's nerves

"I'm pissed because you're fucking irritating" she answers and I know she doesn't mean it. She's just trying to get me to leave her alone but this time I won't let her deal with this alone.

"I might be fucking irritating but that doesn't give you the damn right to treat me like I don't exist. We were friends since elementry school and you didn't get it 9 months ago when I said it in front of Chris and the entire school but I'm sorry for having been the worst friend in the world after getting a boyfriend. Ok I'm sorry for using you as an excuse to be able to sleep over and then ditch you to be with chris every second I was here. I'm even more sorry for not being here when you needed me the most. I get it I'm to blame for our friendship ending. I really do, but hasn't 11 months without my best friend been punishment enough for my mistake?" I tell her while tears run down my face

"You aren't the only one who's gone through hell over my decision" I hear her say and my head shoots up to see that her eyes are full of tears too.