Knowing The Cold Heart (Book 3)

Chapter 16 'Do I Really Love You?'

Questioning yourself in your happiest moment is truly only possible if you found your true life partner or dare I say soulmate. It isn't wrong to ask yourself some difficult questions from time to time or when you have to make some really big decisions in your life - 

(Picuture above is Duyon)

Blaze's POV

After yesterday's talk, Duyon decided to go to his apartment close to his old workplace. He told me he will move to another apartment because he didn't want to be reminded of the mental institution and because his apartment is close to the institution he will move out. 

He told me he wanted some space between us because he needed to feel as if we are not together anymore, that's why he didn't stay the night and went straight to his apartment.  I'm very anxious because I don't know what he will do and if everything will turn out to be for the better. 

I stopped my painting projects because I couldn't concentrate anymore. I have no say about how Duyon wants to live his life but the twisted emotions I am feeling are not helping my situation either. 

If I could, I would lock Duyon up inside this house in order to have him for myself. I know this feeling is not good but I don't know what to do with this twisted urge of mine. 

I grabbed my phone and called Ton because this is not healthy. I need help!

Duyon's POV

''Thanks, Jackson, without you it would take months to move out'' I said to my friend and old colleague. Jackson owns the gym in the mental institution I retired from. ''Dude, I was shocked to hear that you retired from the mental institution'' Jackson said in a hard tone before closing the door of the car. 

Because of him, I already found another place to move to. It's closer to the airport so if I want to fly to another country. I would be there by car within fifteen minutes. ''Yeah, it wasn't helping me anymore. Mentally exhausted me in many parts of my life'' I said in a serious tone before bringing my stuff into the new apartment. 

''Lucky you only have a few items to move'' Jackson said with a smile before opening the door and putting two big boxes on the ground. ''The apartment was only for sleeping if I needed to be closer to the institution'' I said before putting four bags on the ground and walking inside the new apartment. 

''It's simple but beautiful'' I told him with a smile while looking around. ''I've told you to trust me because I know my shit'' He said with a grin before going to the fridge and opening it. 

''You went grocery shopping!?'' I asked him in disbelief after he opened the fridge. It was full of vegetables, fruits, and drinks. ''I ordered the groceries here after you told me you needed some space from your fiancee'' He said before grabbing two cans of bubble water and giving me one. 

''So what's your plan? Single man'' He asked me with a grin. ''Don't really know, but I know we will go to the gay club tonight'' I said with a nervous smile. I wasn't comfortable thinking about how I am now single and could do anything. But I need to see how far I can take this.

''My plan is great, I know a big gay club here. You only need to dress up and the rest is already done'' He said with a smile while looking me up and down. 

''Rest is already done?'' I asked him with a frown. ''Yes, you're handsome and sexy so you only need some chic outfit and your beauty will finish the look'' He said in a matter-of-fact tone before taking a sip from the can. I shook my head in disbelief from his logic before laughing.