Bye, My First

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Doyoung didn't know why he asked Jaehyun to rush to the airport. Maybe it was his instinct. Everyone could see what was happening and everyone can get the situation.
"Hyung, why did Jaehyun hyung hide the fact that he like Jungwoo hyung?" Jeno was the first one to break the silence. He was curious and not only him, every one of them were curious but they didn't have the guts to ask.
"Maybe cat got his tongue." Taeyong smiled at them and ask them to go to their classes because he don't want them to miss their class.

Typical Asian romantic drama, the traffic and everything, Jaehyun being in a hurry wanted to run. The traffic was too bad but it wasn't that bad. He was hoping to meet Jungwoo there and at least he should say what he's been feeling. He took his phone out and called Jungwoo. The younger had his phone switched off. Jaehyun was helpless.

He reached airport, got down and rushed inside. He was running all over the place, from one side to another. He even climbed up a bench to look for Jungwoo. He was panting, sweats on his face. But he didn't give up. He got up again and started looking for him. Even after for a good 20 minutes, he still cannot see Jungwoo.

Maybe he's long gone. Maybe he didn't want to stay here any longer. Maybe I'm the one who made him like this. If only I was a bit brave, I would have held him and told him that I love him. I'm sorry, Kim Jungwoo.

He sat down near on a bench and after being frustrated with himself for a good minute, he looked up and this time, he saw Jungwoo among those who were on their way to the plane. Jungwoo smiled but not to him and he was gone. He was gone for God knows how long.

Jaehyun returned helplessly. He came back to his room all exhausted. He opened his door and he saw Doyoung waiting for him sitting on the couch.
"I should have said this earlier but Jungwoo didn't want me to."
It was all useless to Jaehyun but he want to know what Doyoung has for him.
"Hyung, I'm tired. I'm not tired like tired but I'm tired of going around. Hyung, why am I such a coward? If only, I had the guts...."

He didn't continue and just put his hand on his head. "Well, you know, Jungwoo liked you first before you did."
Jaehyun looked up and Doyoung swore that he saw Jaehyun's eyes shining for a second but it turned into the saddest eyes he has ever seen.
"Jungwoo held it in for such a long time. You know, he's the kind of kid that'll never say that he's tired or he's feeling sad. He'll smile but he's not smiling."

Jaehyun felt sad when he heard Doyoung, "Jungwoo had always liked you and he'll always like you. He has already confessed to you but only when you cannot hear it."

The more Doyoung talked, the more Jaehyun wished that he was brave.
"But he didn't know how you feel and he has also mistaken Taeyong as your other half. He was relieved that I was with Taeyong but he couldn't bring it up to you. He was glad that he could at least talk to you and he was much more happier when he hang out with you. I wanted him to be happy and that's why I sent you to the mart with him."

Everything was starting to make sense. Doyoung giving them their line time, Jaehyun couldn't wrap his head around but one thing is sure, that Jungwoo likes him too.
"So, everyone knew except me?" Doyoung shook his head.
"One person didn't." Doyoung didn't lie. Everyone knew but only one person was blind about it.

"Jungwoo didn't."

Doyoung left his room and closed the door. He left Jaehyun alone. He wanted Jaehyun to feel how Jungwoo felt all these while. Doyoung didn't want to break both their hearts but something is meant to be broken. Jungwoo has had enough share of his sadness and this time, Jaehyun should share some of it.
"If only things were clear from the start."

Doyoung was right. If only Yuta and Jungwoo didn't put on an act and if only Taeyong had cleared the misunderstanding, well it's not like they knew this would happen but things should have been clear from the start. He is not blaming anyone for it.

Jaehyun just laid down on his bed, hands over his head covering his eyes. He's frustrated with himself. He's frustrated because he was a coward. He's frustrated because he could have done better.

Instead of just watching him from far away, I should have just approached him. That would have been easier.
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Almost a year went by in the blink of an eye since Jungwoo left but no one could forget him. He would always appear in their conversations. Everytime he appears, everyone would look at Jaehyun like they are teasing him.

Just another day at the Uni, another break at their usual table. They were sitting eating their lunch with their usual conversation.
"Hyung, you know what? Jungwoo hyung gave away that he liked Jaehyun hyung long ago." Out of a sudden, Jaemin brought it up.

Most of them looked at Jaehyun except Taeyong, Yuta and Doyoung.
"You know how he would be so giggly when he comes after spending or talking with hyung."
Well, Jaemin was not wrong.

"So, you gonna wait for him till he come back?" Taeyong asked.
Jaehyun remained silent but his silence gave an answer. He was gonna wait till Jungwoo returns no matter how long it takes.

Even if he waited for so long, it was not tiring for him because that's what he want. For Jungwoo to stand in front of him.

As he waited, his degree came to an end. He was graduating.

He needs to move out of his room. As he was tidying his room, a note from his old clothes fell down. He wasn't thinking much when he opened the note.

You may or may not notice me but everytime I look at you, I always find a reason for me to live my life happily. Maybe you are the reason why I'm still living. You became a reason for me. You are the reason why I'm enjoying this college life. Thank you for being my reason. I like you and will always like you though you don't know it. Thank you, I'm glad that you're the one that I chose. Thank you, Jaehyun hyung.

That's what the note said. And for the first time, Jungwoo called him hyung.

Sorry for the late update.