"Grey" Fezco O'Neill x black fem reader

7- Sidelines

You had no idea who Jules was. According to BB, she was the girl who tried to commit suicide at Nate's party. According to Fezco, she was the new girl in town who looked like she walked straight out of Sailor Moon. Who ever she was and what ever she did or said to Rue, you were more thankful than she'd ever know.

It was a very occasional thing you and Rue having those sibling talks. It was never anything specific, but this time the main focus was Fezco. You dodged and denied all of your romantic implications and asked her about the girl she left Nate's party with. Instantly, she lit up just at the mention of her.

"Jules." She said, rocking back and forth on her feet.

"Jules?" You repeated noticing Rue's giddy tone when she said her name.

She didn't get into specifics because too quickly it became the two of you talking about Jules to you prying into Rue's obvious crush.

"So you're..."

You weren't sure how to ask or if you even should. It was a sensitive thing, of course, but something you couldn't really tiptoe around for the rest of your lives.

"Yea." She took a breath. "For two weeks now." She sounded proud of herself, regardless of her solemn overall tone.

You kept your reaction limited, thinking it was the more appropriate reaction. You didn't jump for joy the way you wanted to, but instead you gave Rue a hug. One by how stiff she stood she wasn't expecting, but by how she eventually softened she liked.

Two weeks, fourteen days. It wasn't the sixty days Gia and Leslie thought it was, but it was a start, right ? And that had to mean something.

...

You were three months into being single for the first time in a year, and you were at that stage where seeing happy couples made you sick to your stomach. But still you were happy for Cassie and McKay. 

"I wanna look cute, but not eager." Cassie said, pulling two things from her closet.

"Then don't wear that top." Maddy comments.

"This? I thought it looked good." Cassie questioned. "I don't really know if I like this bodysuit, though."

"Wait, why not, it's cute?" You asked.

The four of you continue to talk and looked through outfits, while Lexi did homework and Kat just sat on her phone. Holding a blue top over the pink one she was wearing, Cassie turned to you and Maddy on the bed.

"Love that." Maddy said instantly.

"That's nice." You added.

"Like, perf." BB agrees, blowing a cloud of vape smoke. 

She turns to Kat and her sister.

"Lex?"

She looks up for a second.

"Its cute." Is all she says before returning to her homework.

Maddy sighs.

"I wish I had your collar bones."

Slowly the door opens, Cassie and Lexi's mom standing int the doorway with a glass of wine that seemed glued to her hand.

"I'm putting a lot of trust into you." She says  in a serious tone.

"Yeah, Cassie, don't get pregnant." Kat jokes.

"That's not funny, Kat." she begins to walk in the room. "But don't you dare get pregnant."

"Relax, mom. He has a roommate." Cassie says matter-of-factly.

"I want you to keep your phone on throughout the night. Send me a photo when you get back to the dorm with a clock in it."

You and Maddy look at each other with confused faces, thinking the same thing.

"Like a ransom photo?" Maddy questions.

"I hate you."

"Well, I love you."

"I love you, too." Cassie says before pressing a kiss to Suze's cheek.

She leaves the room, and Cassie continued to stress over outfits until McKay came to pick her up.

"Have fun, baby girl."

You all stood outside watching Cassie run to the car.

"No funny business, Christopher!" Suze yelled and whispered something else to herself.

The upside to be single or the side that didn't make you sad was hearing about Maddy and Nate's relationship issues. In all honesty, you wanted to tell her to just break up with, but that wouldn't be fair considering the fact that she listened to you complain about both of your ex's with no complaints. You didn't really tell her what happened with you and your ex, all she knew was that he cheated on you and as revenge you ran back to Fezco. You loved Maddy, but still you could never bring yourself to share something that vulnerable, so the only person who knew was Fezco and Ash.

"Do you think people are like 100 percent straight or like 100 percent gay ?" Maddy ask carefully.

"No bisexual people exist, asexual people, pansexual people exist sexuality is like a spectrum you can land anywhere."

"Yeah. Totally."

She takes a moment to think about your words, pretending as if she wasn't asking for a specific reason. But you could tell this was going somewhere.

"Do you think straight guys ever, like, watch gay porn ?"

"I-" You pause and swallow, knowing that you had to be careful with your next sentence. "Um, not if they are like 100 percent straight."

"You said it was a spectrum." She's suddenly defensive.

"Okay, but the spectrum is straight on one side and gay on the other"

She sighs.

"I fucking hate this."

"Is this about Nate?"

It was a natural instinct to ask if it was him whenever something was bothering her.

"No. He's like super straight."

"Is it your dad?"

"No. It's not about any guy that I know."

There's a beat of silence.

"Okay look if I tell you something, you swear on your fucking life you won't say a word?"

Her sudden change of tone rushes you to grab your AirPods.

"Yeah." You said connecting your phone to one of the AirPods.

"I saw some stuff on his phone."

It's a very ominous response.

"Like... like I saw dicks on his phone." She whispers.

Dicks plural as in more than one and by the way she was speaking they definitely were not his.

"Oh." was all you could really say because what else do you say in this situation. "Um-"