The Boy in the Hall

Chapter 14

Samara's P.O.V

I hang up the phone, and head back to the bathroom. I wasn't even going to answer the phone, but I just needed to hear his voice. Just one last time.

I take a long look in the mirror, and hate what I see. I always do. My eyes are too big, and my nose is a funny shape. I'm so fat, and ugly, I can't understand why he is with me. I thought as soon as he found out the truth about me he'd run. They all do. No one has ever been in my life for this long.

'Your a mess up in life, a perfectly good waste of flesh. End it! End it now!'

I open the cabinet, and look through the shelves. I need something strong. I look even harder. I finally find my moms sleeping pills, that she uses regularly. I don't know why she doesn't have them with her now, and I don't care.

My parents still aren't back from where ever they went, but it doesn't matter. They won't miss me anyway. They never wanted me, or loved me, what do they care if I'm gone.

I pour the bottle into my hand, and stare at the little blue pills. The bottle reads, 'will cause drowsiness.' In bright red lettering. I sure hope so...

I pop the first round blue pill into my mouth, and notice the bathroom door is wide open. I shut it quickly, and lock it before Georgia sees me, and can stop me.

It's been really weird having her be nice to me. Even when we were little she would do bad things, and blame them on me. Now, she's changed, and isn't quite as mean. She still has to keep a distance though. She doesn't want anyone to remember I'm her sister, and after this they'll all forget I even existed.

I haven't swallowed the pill yet. I take another look in the mirror. Is this a good choice? Will this fix anything? Will anyone miss me? Ty will, but eventually he will get over me. Or his death will make him. Maybe I'll see him again, in heaven. Maybe there's a different place for suicidal people. I start to cry softly, as memories of when we first met come flooding back to me. I smile at the memory of him telling me he's gay, and of our second first kiss. Then cry harder as the memory of him telling me about his tumour squeezes into my mind.

I look at the note I had written earlier, and I place it on the shelf above the toilet.

One last look in the mirror, and I grab a glass. The pill sits motionless on my tongue. I fill the glass all the way up and drink. The cool liquid cleanses my dry throat, and I swallow the first pill. I feel it catch in my throat then go down smoothly. I put another in my mouth, and another, and another. I swallow six pills in total before I feel the effect kicking in. I feel really good right now, better than I ever have before.

"Samara? Samara, open up, you've been in there a really long time.'' I hear Georgia call. "Samara, open the fuck up!'' I hear her pound harder, and harder on the door.

I lay down in the tub. The cool porcelain feels nice against my skin. ''Samara, please open up!'' I hear Georgia cry one last time.

I wonder if Ty will still love me. Then my world goes black.

***

Ty's P.O.V

I get a phone call at 3:23 am from Georgia. She sounds worried about something. ''It's Samara come quick, she's in the hospital.''

"What?" I say shooting up from my bed. I'm wide awake now. ''Why? What happened?"

"Come quick!'' She yells then I hear the phone go click. I put on my pants, and a shirt, and run down the stairs. I almost trip on my way down, and I run into the couch.

"Ty?" I hear my mom sniffle, and come from the kitchen.

"Hi, Samara's in the hospital, what's wrong mom?" I say limping over, and hugging her.

"The usual," she says sniffing again. "Come, let's talk in the car."

I pull on my shoes, and jump in the car. It's freezing outside because its almost November. My mom is in her nightgown, and slippers. She seems perfectly fine now, but I know she's hiding it. "Mom?"

"Yes darling?" She says staring straight ahead. I pause because I don't know what to say. My world is spinning and my head is so sore. I clutch it in pain.

"I'm okay with moving" I lie, and start to speed. It's 3 in the morning. No cop is going to pull me over.

I need to know if Samara is alright. I would die right now if she wasn't. I go to thoughts about David saying she's a 'suicidal time bomb.' I want to cry, but I won't.

"Your a terrible liar." She finally replies, and I snap back into reality. "That's okay, you should finish school here."

"What about dad?" I ask looking over at her, and I see her staring back at me.

"You have beautiful ocean blue eyes, just like him." She says, and I immediately get confused.

"Dads eyes are green, mom." I say, and look at the road again. She goes silent, and looks out the passenger side window.

"Oh my god!" I say as the light clicks in my head. "He's not my real dad, is he?" I say looking at her in shock.

She shakes her head, and says, "no, he isn't."

"You've got to be fucking kidding me!" I shout, and pound on the steering wheel. Then I see it, bright lights in my eyes, which I now know belong to a different man. Before I can slam on the breaks, I smash into the on coming car. Head on.

Maybe I'll die before I get to the hospital.