Butterfly Graveyard (z.s au)

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*UNEDITED

"Okay," Harry said finally, slipping on his coat. "Thank you so much for having us, mum."

"Of course," Anne kissed Harry's hair. "I enjoyed having you. Feel free to come over anytime."

"Bye," Harry said one last time, waving Anne goodbye and starting his car.

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"Finally," Harry muttered as they entered his house in London. "Now I need to book an appointment. I'll be upstairs, okay?"

Zain just nodded, unbuckling Darcy from her carrier and sitting down on the couch with her.

"Okay," Harry said as he came back downstairs. "Appointment booked to see if I'm pregnant. I'm getting really bad pelvic pains."

"I'm sorry baby," Zain leaned over to kiss Harry. "You look so pretty."

"Thank you," Harry smiled. "I'm going to the bathroom, be right back."

Zain was starting to get worried when Harry hadn't returned from the bathroom after about 15 minutes. Zain tries to ease his mind, telling himself that Harry probably got a call or got distracted until he got a text from Harry asking him to come upstairs.

Zain quickly hurried upstairs, setting Darcy in her baby swing in their room. "Harry?"

"In here," Harry's voice sounded hoarse, like he had been crying.

"What's wrong?" Zain asked as he entered the bathroom. He crouched down by Harry who was sitting on the floor, trying to wipe his tears.

"I don't even know why I'm upset," Harry began, "like, I didn't want to be pregnant and we both agreed I didn't need to be pregnant again and—"

"What are you talking about?" Zain cut in.

"I was having a miscarriage, Zain!" Harry snapped. "What do you think was happening? I don't even know why I'm upset."

"Baby," Zain said softly as he pulled Harry into a hug. "It's okay."

Harry hid his face in Zain's chest, sobbing quietly. They sat there for a moment until Harry pulled away, wiping his face. "I know I shouldn't be upset over this — we both agreed that I shouldn't have another baby for multiple reasons."

"It's okay to be upset, Haz," Zain soothed. "You just had a miscarriage, it's okay."
"I just feel so many emotions right now." Harry said, frustrated with himself. "I just want to be left alone."

"Okay." Zain said as he stood up to exit the bathroom. "Just call for me if you need anything, yea?"

Harry nodded slowly, turning away from Zain.

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"Harry," Zain said quietly, "come on. You need to eat something. I made curry for dinner."

"'M not hungry right now." Harry mumbled.

"At least freshen up baby." Zain said, rubbing Harry's back. "I'll be downstairs with Darcy if you need anything."

Harry just nodded, standing up and grabbing a new change of clothes. He started the shower and slowly got in, washing off his body.

"Hey," Harry said quietly as he joined Zain in the living room.
"Did you take a shower?" Zain asked. Harry nodded, resting his head on Zain's shoulder. "You smell good."

"I feel clean," Harry said. "I like it."

"I like when you're clean too, baby." Zain chuckled lightly. "Do you want anything to eat?"

"Not right now." Harry said quietly, grazing his fingers across Darcy's cheek. "I don't know why I was so upset, I shouldn't have been. We both agreed I didn't need to have another baby."
"Baby." Zain said firmly. "It's okay to be upset when you lose a baby, just know that."

"It's whatever." Harry shrugged. "I need to work on some songs, I'll be upstairs."

Zain just nodded, turning his attention to Darcy as Harry disappeared upstairs. "Hey baby," Zain cooed. "You hungry again?"

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"Darcy's asleep." Harry murmured as he entered the master bedroom where Zain was. "She's so cute."

"You're cute too baby." Zain kissed Harry's cheek. "Come lay down with me."

"I need to start working out again," Harry said as he laid down on top of Zain. "When are you gonna record that song for Fifty Shades Darker?"

"She said she wants to meet up at a studio on Monday next week." Zain said quietly as he ran his fingers through Harry's hair. "You okay?"

"Fine," Harry mumbled. "I think. It was just a giant shock to me coz... I guess I just kept telling myself I wasn't pregnant but..."

"I'm sorry baby." Zain kissed Harry's head. "I love you a lot."

"I love you too." Harry said as he sat up, straddling Zain's lap with his thighs. He hooked his finger around the rim of Zain's boxers, biting his lip.

"Haz," Zain grunted, shaking his head when Harry looked up at him. Harry sighed, leaning down to rest on Zain. "Not if you don't feel good baby."

"M'kay," Harry mumbled into Zain's chest. "I wanna though."
Zain gently rolled Harry over onto his back, slipping off their boxers and kissing Harry's hip bones lovingly.

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"I love you so much," Harry panted as Zain dressed himself again. "Can you come cuddle with me?"

"Let me clean you up babe." Zain said, as he picked up a rag and began wiping off Harry. "I love you too."

"My thighs are bruised," Harry frowned as he sat up.

"Sorry babe," Zain slipped into bed next to Harry, kissing him passionately. "I'm so tired."

"Yeah," Harry placed a hand on the back of Zain's head, playing with his hair. "When do you think it'd be a good time to have another baby?"

"Maybe in a few years," Zain said. "Like... two years. Try your treatment first, though."

"I love you so much," Harry cuddled into Zain. "Sometimes I wonder how I got so lucky with you."

"I love you a lot, too, baby." Zain kissed Harry's forehead.
"We should totally get married." Harry half-joked, smiling.
"Let's just wait, yeah?" Zain smirked. "Let's go to sleep first, babe."

"Okay baby." Harry said with a yawn, quickly falling asleep. Zain smiled fondly, reaching to turn off the lamp and covering themselves with the duvets.

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Ugh yeah sorry I feel like these chapters are going nowhere, sorry

also I have a cow now and it's very time consuming so I'll tryyy to update as much as possible but life is kinda shite rn

Hope you enjoyed! 💜