Chasing her

Three lovers two many

I layed on my bed contemplating what had happened I drove home with Billy, went out with Eddie kissed Steve and went on a sort of date with him  I was slowly drowning in emotions and three people were trying to date me but I couldn't pick one.  Billy, Steve,  Eddie and nice enough all of them. I left my house and drove away from the madness but it chased me down the road I can't be involved with three people but you know that might be true but I can't date them all either obviously. After what Billy said to his family  , and the first time I met Eddie , and tonight with Steve it's impossible I felt as though it was an impossible question was there a right answer they all feel right not just one.
There was nothing I could do. Just wait until they get bored.
How fun.

-at school-
I had to face them I walked into the cafeteria max Nancy and el following how impossible could it be. Very. I found a seat away from the crowd. We ate and spoke quietly avoiding any attention but it was never going to br enough. I stood up to walk to the bin I was pulled away by billy. I couldn't help but smile I tried to get it locked away inside me but it found the key. "Hello love" "hi" I said smiling "pick you up after school I nodded as I turned to face him I looked around to see an occupied Steve and a nonexistent Eddie I smiled billy and walked back to my seat max flashing me a broad smile "omg what are you doing to him, he's nice!"I grinned "honestly I have no clue"

I survived lunch and spent my last period with Eddie at the back on the class passing note. I kept them in my pocket and read them to myself while he was in the principles office
These are the notes:
"You look great in that shirt princess-e"
"I wanna get to know you"
"You can talk to me about any shit going on"
I rolled my eyes at the prices of paper what a load of bs He was sweet and all that but god I just want to sit in class and not be harassed but crumpled bits of paper
Once I was free to escape hell I hurried to the front on the school where billy leant on his car looking straight at me I smiled walking to him he opened the door and closed it for me "so I was thinking if you wanted to come back to mine" wait hold on did he mean- "not like in a weird way just to talk I wanna get to know you, max is going home with her little boyfriend so idk it would be nice to talk maybe get food?
"Yeah sure"" he smiled and sped up and music blasted out from the car. we pulled up to maxs house he opened the door to the trailer and I stepped inside "oh shit Eddie lives opposite here fuck oh god" I followed him to his room, he'd changed it no posters of indecently dressed girls so pungent smell of smoke it was....different. I sat on the edge of his bed, nervous, while he got us a drink and then plopped on his chair we spoke for ages about the most random thing, pets, favourite holidays, family, music of course "i um um gonna change if that's alright" "Yh sure" I don't know why I was nervous to start it was perfect talking to him like how'd I'd talk to el or Nancy I guess I didn't know what to expect he took his jacket off and put it round me he smile "suits you" "you think" I put it on properly  and stood  in front of his mirror staring at it "you look good especially with the top" omg what is it with this top is it like some sort of fit guy magnet or something. "Hold on" I examined myself in the mirror while he opened his wardrobe and pulled out another jacket "try it, it's too small for me but your tiny so" I put it on and gasped offended at his little statement  as I caught his eye through the mirror "keep it" "no it's yours here you already gave me your sunglasses" "look the glasses looked better on you and the jacket looks better on you it's my jacket I can say who I give it to" as he said his a harsh tone entered his voice I just smiled "thanks"
"you know I don't think your right, you look rlly good in your jacket" I said smirking I think it's time I mess with him a little "he looked down covering a smile accompanied by a blush I walked towards him and moved my lips bare millimeteres away from his. His lips parted and I could feel his strong stare on mine. I leaned behind him, picked up my drink and walked away smirking I know this frustrated him he firmly grabbed my arm and pulled me back and kissed me passionately one hand around the back of my neck the other on my lower waist I smiled into the kiss before slowly pulling away "no need to be violent" I stepped away and leant on his wardrobe kind of laughing at his reaction
"god what are you doing" he said out of breathe
"I don't know what your talking about mr Hargrove" "you sure about that darling" he walked Ben closer to me I tried to keep a straight face and also hide the absolute fear inside of me
What he gonna do god why did i think this was smart he grabbed my waist hand attacked me with his scarlet lips i twirled and gently pulled his golden curls eventually I tried to make it obvious that I wanted to be able to breathe for a minute he slowly retreated "getting a bit too comfortable there" I said half giggling i moved away and sat on the each of his bed.
After two hours of pissing each other off and talking to billy I had to leave to report back to el and Nancy, max will probably find out personally from billy of course. I took my things along with his jacket as I came to the door i eyed around the field looking Eddie who was no where to be seen "woah whats the freak doing with Chrissy Cunningham" "wait what" he pointed to his trailer with his eyes where i saw him hold the door open. For her. I contained my emotions taking a silent breathe in. Why did I care so much this was a stupid one week thing why did it hurt that much seeing if of my three interest with someone else granted that someone else was Chrissy but even so. We walked out then briskly drove away.
Billy pulled up to mine where like the last time i smiled sweetly. We smiled a lot it sort of just filled the in between moments. I slowly walked away And for a moment my mind was free the chaos and madness the tears and the worry were gone, no where to be found.