My Muse

What Did I Do?

"He touched what's ours." Those words kept repeating in my head as everyone started fighting, Thomas restraining me everytime I attempted to run. It was a bloody war, I was scared about Newt and Minho hurting each other, seeing how hard Minho threw him off of me, but I was most concerned about Chuck, what if he's in there, getting hurt? What if something happens to him? I'll never forgive myself. What did I do?

"Thomas let me go!!" I screamed, he spun me around, soon his lips met mine, but, just like Newt, he was thrown away from me by a Glader. I was completly shocked when Gally picked me up and slung me over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes and started jogging away. I repeatedly hit his back but he kept jogging like nothing happened. A few seconds later, I fell off his shoulder onto the hard ground, I groaned, a splitting headache came. I stood up, seeing little black dots, I saw Gally laid out on the ground with a huge log in his way and a smiling Glader next to it. The Glader grabbed my hand and yanked me away, I stopped running only to have him pull my hand even more. Then, something gripped my other hand and refused to let go as the Glader kept tugging me along. I looked to my left to see Minho, sweat covered his face as well as cuts all over his face and bruises on his arms. To my right, I saw the Glader with black hair that I first saw before all this... chaos grew. They started pulling me so hard until I thought I was going to tear in two.

"STOP!" I yelled off the top of my lungs, all movement stopped, only the rapid breath of the Gladers could be heard. "What has, gotten into all of you? You use to be friends, or have you forgotten that?!" Minho's grip loosened from my hand, and so did the other Glader, I looked around to see all the Gladers shaking their heads and asking questions of how they got here. I collapsed on my knees and burst out crying. Everyone looked at me, staring, like they did, except now their eyes weren't dull or lifeless, they were filled with confusion and panic. "It's all my fault." I felt a hand on my back, I look to my side to see Newt.

"What happened?"

"I-It's all my fault. I'm dangerous." I could hear whispers and feet shuffling away as I cried. Great, they're scared of me now. They should be, I just caused all of them to fight and now it's up to me to explain what happened.

"Okay, everyone get back to work! We will have a meeting tonight so Greenie here can explain what happened!" Alby yelled, everyone immediantly walked away, ready to start their jobs. Probably glad to get away from me, a freak.

"Come on, Catlin. You should get some rest, you look bloody awful." Newt joked, I only painfully chuckled as my headache grew by the minute. He put an arm around my waist, but I jerked away as that reminded me of the kiss.

"No, I can do it, by myself. I-I just want to be alone." I backed away from him, whipping my head away from his hurt expression and slowly walking towards my tent.

*Time Skip- Night*
"So, can you explain to us what happened this morning?" Alby asked as I sat on a log, everyone looked at me, eyes pleading for an explaination.

"After breakfast, I-I went to the Dead Heads. Then, I closed my eyes and started singing, w-when I opened them..."

"When you opened them what?"

"You were surrounding me."

"Who were?" Newt asked sympathetically, unlike Alby who just stood there with his arms crossed and a stern expression.

"Everyone. All the Gladers. All of you." Everyone broke out into whispers and confused looks at each other.

"SLIM IT AND LISTEN!!" Alby yelled, the room immediantly became silent. "Go on." He said, more of a command than a gesture.

"Then, Newt, h-he..." I looked up to see some people looking at Newt curiously and some looking at me, eager to hear the rest like it's some fairytail.

"He what?" Minho asked who was sitting in front of me along with Thomas, Chuck, and Newt.

"He-He kissed me." Everyone gasped, looking at Newt shockingly, while Newt looked like he saw a ghost while his face was mad red!!

"Then?"

"Y-You yanked him off of me, threw him to the ground. Everyone surrounded him. I-I tried to protect him.... But Thomas held me back, saying that Newt touched what was all the Gladers. T-Then, everyone broke out into fighting... Each other."

"What happened next?" Newt asked, I looked at Thomas, as he stared back at me.

"T-Thomas kissed me." Everyone had the same reaction, gasps as Thomas tried to hide his blush, but failed epically!! "Then, someone grabbed him from me, then Gally picked me up and started running. Until... someone tripped him. That's when someone grabbed my hand and started running, until Minho and another Glader decided to play Tug 'O War with me. I yelled stop and everyone stopped, and came back to reality." I finished, looking up to see some boys completly shocked by their actions, some mad that Newt and Thomas kissed me, some laughed at Gally and his desperate attempt to carry me away, and some with tomato faces.
"Newt, take the Greenie beack to her tent while I give the rest of these slint-heads an explaintatiin on what to do." Alby ordered Newt, he stood up as I followed him and started walking to my tent.

When we got there, Newt just said good night and was about to leave. "Wait, Newt." I called, he turned back around, but he looked angry at something. Probably me, for making me kiss him. Who would want to kiss a girl like me? I thought, he turned around and looked at me.

"Yeah?" He asked, walking towards me.

"What did I do?"

"You didn't do anything. We just went crazy... over a girl. That's what happens in the Gpade, it makes you insane."

"No... it wasn't the Glade, if it was that, then..."

"Then, what?"

"All of you had this.. look in your eyes. Like you wanted something, lust. L-Like someone took your free will."

"The Creator's took that away when they placed us in this bloody prison." I looked up at Newt, he was in front of me with a solemn expression, I stared into his dreamy brown orbs, but he just looked away.

"I know you're mad at me."

"For what?"

"For making you kiss a freak like me." Then, I felt him take my hands, I looked up to see him staring at me. Then, he said something that confused me, everything seems confusing here. I thought after he said:

"I'm mad at Thomas, for kissing you."