𝙁𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙄𝙨 𝘼𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨

001

March 15th, 1978

Y/N

IT HAD BEEN TWO WHOLE... weeks since the loss of my best friends. I had fallen into depression. I've been staying in my room almost everyday and skipping school. Fortunately, I had one of my best friends, Finney. He had been trying to get me to come to school, I really wanted to but it just reminded me of all of them.

I was laying down on my bed facing the ceiling. The phone on my nightstand started to ring. I sat up and grabbed it. I placed it near my ear. "Finney, please stop calling. I'm not coming to school tomorrow." I waited for a response, but I didn't get one. "Finney-" "it's not Finney, y/n." The voice I had just heard sounded familiar. "W- we- well, who is this?" "Bruce." I froze at the name.

My eyes started to water, and my body started to heat up. I closed my eyes and laid down, but the thing is, I wasn't making myself do this. There was a force pushing me.

Suddenly I woke up in bed to someone saying my name. "Y/n? Y/n?" The person shook me. I woke up and quickly sat up. "Omg, you scared me. Why are you crying?" I quickly wiped the tears and got out of bed. "Nothing, i don't know. But Finney, why are you here?" I sighed. "I came to ask you to come to school." I rolled my eyes at him. "Please y/n, I know you're hurt. But I'm tired of seeing you like this. You're my best friend and I want to see you happy."

I let out a deep breathe. "Fine, Finney fine. I'll go, happy?" With a sarcastic tone, I walked to my closet. "Yes I am. I'll be downstairs waiting for you okay?" He headed for the door. "Mhm." I gave him a thumbs up.

I decided to wear one of Bruce's baseball tees with some jeans and converse. The shirt smelled like him, it made me want to crawl back into bed and bawl my eyes out. I pushed the feeling away and walked to the bathroom. I turned the light on and stood by the counter. I turned the faucet water on and grabbed my toothbrush. I finished up and walked to my bedroom, I grabbed my backpack and went to the living room.

"I'm ready." I was already dreading the day. Finney smiled. "Come on before I change my mind." I opened the front door and walked out. Finney ran behind me. "Wait up!"

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We made it to school. When we entered the building all heads turned towards me. "I'm uncomfortable." I whispered to Finn. "It's gonna be okay, I got you." He grabbed my hand. I gave him a slight smile. That took a lot of energy.

We walked to the outside of my class. "See you after class?" "See you after class." We both agreed and he walked away. I walked into class, trying not to bring attention to myself. I walked to the back of class, I sat in the corner desk next to the window. I put my backpack on the floor and leaned on the desk while looking out the window.

"Well, well, well. Look who decided to show up! Class give a warm welcome to y/n Starke!" Well there goes my discrete presence. Everyone was staring at me. I grabbed my shirt and smelled it. Bruce's scent always gave me comfort, I miss him so much. I heard whispers from people mainly consisting of "she's so weird." I really wish I didn't come today.

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First period ended. I quickly got up and walked out of class. I ran to Finn. "Y/n what's wrong-" I quickly cut him off. "I can't do this. I can't, not today." I started to cry, he pulled me into a hug. "I miss them," I wiped my tears, "I miss them so much." "I miss them too. I really do."

The first bell rang alarming us to get to class. "Come on let's go." Finn grabbed my hand and ran to class. We had this class together luckily, but this was a class we had with Robin as well.

We made it in on time. It was science class. We sat next to each other. The teacher began talking, I put my head down on the lab table. "Excuse me, Ms. Starke! You could atleast pay attention to class, definitely since you haven't been here for a week!"

The class started laughing. My body began to shake, I guess Finney noticed so he started rubbing my upper back. "Mrs. Stephen, she doesn't feel well today." Finn stuck up for me. "Let her talk for herself!" She glared at him. He didn't say anything else. "So! Are you gonna talk!" I lifted my head up. She stared at me expecting an answer.

I looked her in the eyes and grabbed my backpack. I walked out the class and ran to the school exit doors. "Y/n! Wait!" Finney caught up to me. "What! What do you want?! You made me come here, I can't do this today!" I barged out the doors. I started running, I didn't know where I was going but I let my feet bring me wherever.

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I ended up at the baseball field. I walked to the bleachers and sat there, imagining Bruce hitting his home run the day before his disappearance. My eyes started to water, I grabbed the hem on my shirt and smelled it. Out of all of the boys, I was closes to Bruce. We loved each other. When all the boys got kidnapped my whole world fell apart. I tried everything to find them. But I failed, I blame myself for their deaths every single fucking day.

I held my knees to my chest. "Guys, I miss you all. My life is falling apart. Even though I have Gwen and Finney, I-..I just don't have you guys. An-and I don't think," I wiped a tear as I sniffled, "I can't live like this anymore, please. please lord, please take me. Bring me to them." I started shaking until...

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First chapter!! Sorry for the cliffhanger, I'll get the next chapter out right away!