Unknowingly Yours

24

It's Saturday morning and I wake up still feeling tired. I didn't come home until late last night. I really enjoyed spending time with Minju.

Even though I don't remember her, she felt familiar. Maybe because we can talk about our high school lives and share stories about the things that happened. It's nice to reminisce and connect with someone so easily but I have to remind myself that it can easily go away like what happened with Yeji.

Even if she didn't feel the same way about me, how could she end our friendship? I could have given her space if she asked.

I get out of my room to have a bowl of cereal.

"Hi" I see Yeji sitting at the table. Seeing her hurts me but I can't stop her from coming here. Her best friend lives here too.

"Morning" I say then proceed to grab a bowl and my cereal.

"Where did you go last night?" She ask.

I set my bowl down on the counter, "Look, seeing you around is hard enough as it is. I'll be civil with you, Yeji because Jisu is my friend too so I understand it would be impossible for me not to see you but please don't ask me questions like that acting like you still care."

"But I do" she looks down.

I take a deep breath, "What do you want from me Yeji? You're the one who wanted to stop being friends with me. For the life of me, I don't know what I did wrong. It wasn't my business to meddle in your relationship with Soobin. Even though I liked you, I supported the two of you together. Is it because I confessed? Is that why you stopped wanting to be friends? You hate the fact that I had feelings for you?"

"I panicked and I didn't know how to react to your sudden confession" she says.

"Rejecting my feelings is one thing but you rejected me even as a friend. Do you know how much that hurt? Someone you really liked and cared about turned their back on you just because you have feelings for them."

"I'm sorry" she fidgets with her hands.

I'm upset with her but I hate seeing her looking sad like this.

I sigh, "I'll accept your apology."

She looks at me, "Really?"

"You accepted me when I tried to end our friendship so I'll accept your apology but I hope you understand why I'm still gonna keep my distance from you" I say.

"Why?" She looks at me, confuse.

"It's only been a little over a week. Do you really think my feelings for you went away that fast? Us being close is gonna make it worst so until I can move on from you, I think it's best we keep our distance" I explain.

"I miss you" She looks down again. 

"Don't do that, please. When you do that, my heart forgets that it's trying to move on from you."

"I promise, I'll come back to you once my heart stops reacting to you" I add.

She looks at me again like she wants to say something but she stops herself.

I continue with my breakfast while she does her own thing. I didn't expect to forgive Yeji this soon but I think it would be unfair to not give her another chance to be my friend when she gave me a chance before.

I don't know if we will ever go back to how we were before though.

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"How are you doing?" My best friend enters my room.

Yuna and I are hanging out because it's been a while since we had a sister time.

"I thought you were on a date" Yuna says.