Beneath The Scars

Chapter 7

I was being discharged today, which is great news since I've been waiting to continue the story of my life with Josy . I would have loved to be fourteen again if it meant to be with Johan again . I wish I could remain frozen in time at fourteen . The time I had a friend and a brother. Since I lost Johan I lost my home , my friend, my brother and my only family . Could it be that he got fed up with me or he lost interest in me but there again if my own family left me why won't someone I met not long ago.
Thinking of this I did not notice the droplets of water that flowed through my eyes . You never really know how much someone means to you until you loose that person . There is a pain within this heart,  pain within my sadness through my eyes, My eyes are like a burden that you can see right through, No pain I ever felt was that single broken heart that, There is way out of this pain but somehow I can't see it , See the light , the hope ,the happiness I once wanted to feel , Now I ever feel is this sadness , this pain, this heartache, A pain within these wall I can hear it say, There is no way out , No way to way away the pain , The pain I feel . This poem was written by Jennifer Rondeau . Johan please come back I miss you.
I shut my eyes , no glimpse of light , I go in silence , and I scream in my mind, what in the heavens did I do wrong , to feel such hell , would this pain end shortly , Or would it last long? (Written by Kurt Geric Dili.)
There's no more you and I feel more lonely , there's no more you and my tears seam not to flow , there is pain everywhere ,yet it seems not to show , my blood is oozing out of my scars yet I feel no pain , just numb , I feel just numb ,like a broken piece of glass . I wrote this down in my notepad .
I quickly got up and turned my head hearing voices behind me . " Did you think you could run , I love to play hide and seek . Would you like to see what I do to them after finding them ? I punish them just like I'm about to do ." He spat out . Please leave me I'm begging you just kill me , death would be better than a life like this . " SHUT UP " He shouted . "Guys lock her up ." He said to his subordinate ." No, please leave me , don't do this , I'm begging you , leave me ! " I shouted with all my might but to blocked ears . I'll never be strong please leave me. I shouted as I exited the room . How I wish I could have amnesia.  That way I would be able to erase all my pain . Please God help me out of this problem ,only this and I won't ask of anything again .