Beneath The Scars

Chapter 28

Early this morning Josy messaged me the address to her husband's cafe . She spoke of how she wanted to hear everything that had happened in the past six years and also she wanted me to meet her husband Edward since I couldn't make it to their wedding two years ago . I walked to a flower shop and bought a bouquet of red roses for Josy . When I finally came out of the shop I picked a taxi and headed for cafe Rosa . When I arrived I texted Josy to tell her I have arrived that was when I spotted Josy with her seven months old pregnant self approach me .  " Josy , oh my goodness I missed you so much these are for you ." I said . " No need to be so formal come here , meet my husband Edward." She said . " Nice to meet you Mr. Edward Jones ." I said  . Josy took me to the far end of the cafe served ,me a cup of coffee and a plate of cookies and began talking . She told me that the man she met at prison had been released and that with the help of father Augustine he had gotten in contact with her . She told me that he was in search of his daughter and they were meant to meet in two days time to disclose information that would be needed to find his daughter . After two hours of constant talking and making up for the lost time I decided to leave Josy to rest. While walking home I saw the church building opened and walked right through the gate . If there was still one person I had to thank then that would be father Augustine .He helped me when I thought that the whole world was against me . When I got into the church room I listened to what he was preaching about which was something at the moment I needed to know . He was preaching about the need to let go .He said "Our past struggles can weigh heavily on our shoulders. When we refuse to let go of the past, it holds us back and prevents us from living in the moment. And from being who we really want to be.
According to Eckhart Tolle, people create and maintain problems because they give them a sense of identity.
Is it the fear of losing this identity that makes us hold onto a painful past for too long and prevents us from living in the present moment? Are we so attached to our struggles, because we don’t know how we would be without them? We spend too much of our precious time dwelling on the past. “I wish I could just erase that mistake.” “Why did that happen to me?” “I wish I’d made my own choices earlier.” But guess what, the past can not be changed but we can look forward and try to improve on the future .Your past has shaped you into the special and unique individual that you are today. Realizing this is a great first step to appreciating and embracing your own story. Nobody is perfect and we all carry a past with us. As the bible says in Isaiah 43:18 -19  “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!...." and in  Philippians 3:12; "but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead. I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” and also as Ephesians 4:31-32 say; "Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you." Let us put the past behind us and forgive those who wronged is for forgiveness is the only way to move forward and by forgiving others the Lord too shall forgive you of your sins as said in  Matthew 6:15; "But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins." After the Catholic father's preaching the choir proceeded to sing amazing grace a song sang by John Newton as well as what a beautiful name it is.
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils, and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who called me here below,
Will be forever mine.
When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.
Verse 1
You were the Word at the beginning
One with God the Lord Most High
Your hidden glory in creation
Now revealed in You our Christ

Chorus 1
What a beautiful Name it is
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King
What a beautiful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a beautiful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

Verse 2
You didn’t want heaven without us
So Jesus You brought heaven down
My sin was great Your love was greater
What could separate us now

Chorus 2
What a wonderful Name it is
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King
What a wonderful Name it is
Nothing compares to this
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus
What a wonderful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

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Death could not hold You
The veil tore before You
You silence the boast of sin and grave
The heavens are roaring
The praise of Your glory
For You are raised to life again

You have no rival
You have no equal
Now and forever God You reign
Yours is the kingdom
Yours is the glory
Yours is the Name above all names

Chorus 3
What a powerful Name it is
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus Christ my King
What a powerful Name it is
Nothing can stand against
What a powerful Name it is
The Name of Jesus

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What a powerful Name it is The Name of Jesus
What a powerful Name it is The Name of Jesus

I dwelled over the words the Catholic father had said .It seemed that in this short moment he had managed to solve one of my problems . He had managed to help me understand the value of letting go and forgiving others and at this moment I was more than ready to meet my father . I wanted to forgive him for everything I held him responsible for , I wanted to free him of his guilt  . I wanted to let him know how I also feel and  how happy I am that he did not abandon us but he left for our safety .