The Words Unsaid

Last Night

Last Night

Christine Summer

I stayed up late last night,

Thinking about when we’d have a fight,

Felt like I’m losing my mind,

In your eyes, every time I see good-bye.

This felt like touch and go,

And I wished that you know,

That I might act tough,

But I also melt in your laugh.

I almost picked up the phone,

Now I’m feeling so alone,

And I thought I’d call you,

To tell you that I miss you.

But I know you are not home,

In some place, I felt so low,

Because while I bleed for you,

You were with someone new.

I don’t know if you just wanted me to see,

That I needed you more than you needed me,

Or just that you don’t care what I’d feel,

Every time my heart is not fulfilled.

Day after day another girl,

Minute after minute I tried to feel,

My heart stopped beating with every wound,

Scarred, broken, I end and break for you.

As you walk past me I whisper to you,

That this is not what I really feel for you,

I might act like I don’t see you,

But in my eyes there is only you.

You are the reason I don’t smile anymore,

The reason I don’t laugh like before,

The reason I don’t sleep at night,

The reason I don’t feel right.

And maybe it was a mistake for you,

But for me everything was true,

I relished every memory in my mind,

You loving me, I cannot find.

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For J. T.

This is what I felt when you walk past me in the hallway.

Christine.

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