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Chapter 16

Eventually

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Wish I could turn you back into a stranger
'Cause if I was never in your life
You wouldn't have to change it
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Everyday I continuously threw up to top it off I was only about 8 weeks pregnant so I was not too far along either.

How can I go through the rest of this pregnancy when I already fucking hate this...

Sanzu was pretty annoyed with his brother staying over whilst I was feeling unwell because Takeomi would force him to make me tea and run me baths.

I on the other hand felt pretty happy about Takeomi staying because I felt as though I could see Haru again

"Still not coming to work today miss throws up a fuckin lot?" I shook my head no and rolled over in bed as Sanzu just sighed

"Hello my future sister in law! Sanzu..." Takeomi barged into our room making Sanzu scoff

"Go away Takeomi y/n isn't feeling well she doesn't need you to make it worse"

"Don't be mean to your brother coming in to check on me he's being thoughtful" this irked Sanzu

"I don't know why you put up with this stupid fuckin asshole y/n all he does is annoy me" I giggled and he gave me a dirty look in return

Come to think of it why did I stop calling him Haruchiyo

"Haru do you think you could get me A glass of water my throat feels dry..."

He looked a bit taken aback

"Haru? I haven't heard that name in a while..." he stood up and went to follow my request

He used to be so sweet what happened

"So y/n have you told him yet?" I shook my head no

"I don't know how I'm gonna tell him, I haven't made a decision yet..."

"What decision?"

"If I want to leave Bonten..."

His eyes widened

"You see I think if I'm gonna be a mother I would want my child to grow up away from crime, I think I have to leave him..."

I began to cry leading Takeomi to come over and comfort me

"Hey it's gonna be okay I'm here for you I'm sure my brother will understand when you tell him he needs to know"

I just nodded my head and sighed

"Tell me what?" Sanzu came in looking a bit agitated probably because were talking about him

"Just about how y/n is pretty stressed at the moment so it's looking like your gonna have to do your own paper work for now on" Takeomi smirked to Sanzu knowing this would piss him off

"Whatever come on we have a meeting today, y/n your just gonna have to look after yourself" with that the two brothers left for the meeting

I don't know what I want to do maybe I should discuss this with Sanzu, I feel as though he won't leave Mikey though...

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Sanzu's pov

Lately it feels as though people are keeping secrets from me

Should I kill them?

I feel like things are taking a weird turn and I don't think I deserve this bullshit, my life should be happy I get all the drugs I want I'm number two of japans biggest gang organisation I'm engaged what more could I fuckin want.

I can't irk this feeling that y/n isn't being faithful to me her behaviour has taken a huge u turn lately

What is that girl hiding...

When did our relationship become this... we used to be together all the time and now it's like she hasn't got time for me or she's trying to get away from me.

"Hey Sanzu you better look after her she's in a rough situation right now and she needs you most"

"I don't know why I should when she's keeping secrets from me"

"I wouldn't worry about that you don't often find people like her, you should always treasure those type of people"

"Takeomi don't you think I know that! she's my fiancé shit head!"

He just shook his head which irked me

"Hey Takeomi do you know what's wrong with y/n should I get her a doctor or something"

"Actually she's already gone to the doctors they want her to return in a couple of weeks"

"Did they give her medicine or something?"

He just chuckled

"You could say that maybe you should go ask and see after we finish our important business"

Bonten is top priority Mikey is the king

"Right..."

I'll get back to y/n later and see what she's up to but for now I serve under Mikey and Mikey only

I'll also have her back at work starting tomorrow if she's already gone to a doctor I don't see why she gets to lay in bed all day and snooze.

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Readers pov

Throwing up for what seemed like the hundredth time today was not pleasant however I was starting to feel a little better

"God how am I gonna survive 9 months..."

I got myself up from the cold bathroom floor to wash my face, I felt so rundown I really didn't feel like myself.

"Aren't people usually happy in my situation... am I not normal?"

I honestly just wished I could go back to the good times of being young and unafraid

Being an adult sucked I had never felt more depressed than I do now nothing stays the same yet I feel like nothing changes for the good.

I've always done it for Sanzu but has he ever done anything for me, does he actually care about me.

These thoughts I was having came to me everyday, I just felt useless and worthless but ever since I found out I was pregnant being around Sanzu made me question if these last 12 years were out of love or thinking it was just the right thing to do at the time and we just rolled with it

"What am I going to do..."

At the beginning our relationship felt like love, he was so affectionate towards me. I began to reminisce our youth smiling at the great times our youth held questioning where did it all go wrong

I just miss my Haruchiyo

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Word count: 1013

I KNOW I ALWAYS SAID THAT I COULD NEVER HURT YOUUUU
WELL THIS IS THE VERY VERY LAST TIME IM EVER GOING TO

I FUCKIN LOVE THIS SONG IT SLAPS

Honestly so excited to see how this continues since I'm editing my old drafts right now so it's like I'm reading them too and going oooh what's gonna happen next

Please vote and comment I read all of them 😊

Bluey 💙