Simple and clean

Chapter 15

Black out days

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Speak in tongues
I don't even recognise your face
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For as long as my brain will let me remember everyday has been the same

Paperwork, drugs, sex and occasionally killing somebody, funnily enough it felt like I had experienced life as a repetitive cycle before

I felt miserable. I had Sanzu but strangely enough that felt different too

I wonder how my life came to this, I swear I used to be an innocent girl with a normal life

I miss Senju and Emma everything feels so black and white these days.

Why do I do these things anyway...

Oh that's right! I did it for him

"YOU FUCKIN BITCH!" Speaking of the devil

"Hello Sanzu what brings yourself to me today?"

"YOU! YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE THAT FUCKING PAPERWORK I ASKED YOU TO DO ITS FUCKIN LOST AND NOW OUR NEXT SHIPMENT WONT BE HERE TIL NEXT TUESDAY"

The paperwork I handed to him to read and file away? of course it's my fault

"I'm sorry Sanzu it won't happen again"

"SORRY ISNT GONNA FIX THIS IS IT FUCKS SAKE" he then proceeded to mess up his office and Chuck things everywhere

I've said it before and I'll say it again, When did my life become this...

"Excuse me Sanzu I'm not feeling too well could I-"

"FUCK OFF OUT OF HERE YOU USELESS BITCH"

This always happens when he's on a come down... no lie though I did feel quite sick

I walked myself to the lift of the building we were in holding onto my stomach

I felt my field of vision start to spin

Maybe I should go see koko

so I dragged myself along to Koko's office to rest and talk

"Hello y/n what brings you here today"

His office had to be the nicest looking one in our hideout I sat myself on his couch and sighed

"Sanzu keeps shouting at me and I don't feel too good"

"Oh really how come?" He sat himself in his chair leaning back waiting for my response

Before I could even answer him I had to quickly rush myself to his bathroom to throw up

Maybe I need a drug fix?

"Y/n are you okay?" Koko had rushed over to my side rubbing my back with a look of concern

"Yeah I'm good just nauseous that's all" I wiped my mouth with my arm staring at my lunch that was now in the toilet bowl with disgust

"You ready to talk now?" I flushed the toilet then turned towards my friend

"He wanted me to do some of his paperwork which is now lost! I did hand it to him to read and file away but I think it's been misplaced" koko sighed starting to rub his temples

"Y/n he's an asshole I don't know why you put up with him"

"I don't put up with him he's my fiancé and I love him" I smiled however that smile quickly vanished as I started to vomit again