Until Married

Chapter twenty

I didn't know which one my heart was going to choose because I slept with Lucas twice during this trip while I am dating Jackson. Jackson is sweet and beyond caring and he will find the right girl to make her happy. Lucas is sweet and beyond helpful and he made me feel like me with all of my faults and yet I am still beautiful to him. 

''Izzy, you going to need to test your feelings with them both since you are confused.'' Cherry suggested. 

''How would I do that?'' 

''You going to need to test them on things you have done with you.'' 

''I am not going to sleep with Lucas when I already did it for the second time.'' Cherry stared at me shocked because she didn't think I had it in me. Then she told me I need to trust my heart because it will lead me to the right path, but right now my heart is telling me that I am confused because I am falling love with Jackson and slowly falling in love with Lucas which is wrong because they are cousins. 

It was time to get ready for the wedding rehearsal, so Cherry needed to get dressed while I was getting ready to hang at the beach just to think. I got dressed headed to the beach where I bumped into Lucas as he was walking over to the beach. 

''Why aren't you with Stephanie and the rest of them?'' 

''I should ask you the same thing.'' 

''I am a guest at the wedding.''

''So am I.'' He smirked, in that moment I wanted to kiss Lucas, but I knew it would be wrong because I am with Jackson. Jackson was coming down to the lobby from the elevator, so he approaches me by placing a kiss on my forehead. 

''Are you guys going to the beach together?'' 

''No, I am going for a walk at the beach.'' I said while Lucas was staring at me, then Jackson offer to walk with me since I look a little lonely. Jackson and I were walking down to the beach as Lucas were staring at us holding hands. Jackson and I was walking on the sand at the beach speaking about the future. I love when Jackson talks about the future because it reminds me how much he values me to speak about his future. 

Then he mentions how he and I would end up being together in the future. In that moment I feel like we will be married with children, and I can't wait for this event to happen. Maybe it will help me forget about Lucas and these feelings I am feeling for him. I didn't want to hurt Lucas especially knowing we ended up sleeping together and I cannot let Jackson knows this because he will think I did this on purpose to hurt him. 

As Jackson and I was walking on the beach, I was forgetting about Lucas and what we did before we got here. Then I heard Stephanie with Michael as they are playing around with one another at the beach. I remember when Michael was playing with me like that at the beach, but now I have Jackson where we take walks. 

Lucas P.O.V 

I went back into my room watching Jackson with Isabelle walking down on the sand at the beach as they are holding hands. It was making me furious knowing I am feeling these things and I could not tell her. She is one of the most inferior sexiest women I ever met because she sometimes thinks she is not beautiful, and I love reminding her how beautiful she is. My mom came into my room asking me if I was alright, but I couldn't show my emotions to her because she wouldn't understand how much I want Isabelle in my arms, in my bed, just in my life for fuck's sake. 

''Son.'' I turned around to face my mother as she was staring at me as if I am ill. 

''Lucas Vushkmar, you look ill.'' 

''I am not ill, I'm just in...'' I couldn't finish the sentence because I didn't want my mom to ask me any questions. 

''Honey, I know you love her.'' My eyes pop out once my mother said I love her.

''Who?''

''I am not stupid, Lucas.'' 

''I know mother, but I didn't think you knew.'' 

''From the moment I saw her at the house and the way you look her tells me how much you wanted her.'' 

''Mom, she is with Jackson.'' 

''You need to tell her.'' 

''I can't because I slept her, and I don't want Jackson to know.'' 

''Are you telling me that you have slept with Isabelle?'' 

''Yes.'' My mom walked out the door and I was confused on why she left the room when I was telling her how I love Isabelle. I got myself dressed because I had to attend the wedding rehearsal dinner tonight since the wedding is tomorrow. I couldn't believe Michael is finally marrying the woman he loves all this time, sometimes I hate him because he hurt Isabelle. 

I know Isabelle will be drinking tomorrow since now her ex will be married to his fiancé. 

Isabelle P.O.V 

''We need to attend the rehearsal dinner.'' I was telling Jackson because we need to rush to put on her outfits for tonight dinner. I don't think I will be okay because Michael will be married tomorrow right after he hurt me. I rushed back to the house getting myself dressed as I passed by Cherry as she was going downstairs. I got myself dressed headed downstairs to congrats the soon-to-be newlyweds. 

I wanted to get drunk tonight because I can't stand Michael. Although I was with Jackson, but it still hurts. I was placed next to Lucas which made the night even more better knowing I have slept with my boyfriend cousin.