✅ If I Decide To LEAVE YOU ~ [English Version ]

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 - 8

If I Decide To LEAVE YOU~
[YIZHAN-WATTPAD]
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I arrived tired after reviewing the financial balance at the end-of-month meeting of the family business. When I saw my sister-in-law's vehicle at the gate, I immediately knew what was going on.

At first, it seemed strange to me that the children stayed at home with their father in such a state... Zhan would never spend his heat around the children.

Lately... he didn't do it by my side either.

Our relationship was on a constant downward slope.

The fault is totally and absolutely mine.

But my lack of courage and the fear of hurting him slowly consumes me.

Xiao Zhan is the most noble, loving and dedicated person, both to me and to our children.

We were great friends since childhood, then inseparable companions, but love knocked on our door in the last months of college.

I realized that my love for him went beyond a simple friendship, when his sweet aroma of flowers, his smile or a simple kiss or hug, caused stronger feelings than the fraternal ties that united us until then.

Greater was my joy when he reciprocated my feelings.

On the night of the graduation, Xiao Zhan had his first heat, his suppressants failed due to excessive alcohol intake throughout the celebration.

His scent of fresh flowers made me find him, luckily before any other alpha.

He was the most beautiful omega. He still is.

Xiao Zhan begged me to attend to the needs of his dying omega, and I couldn't refuse his request. He wrapped himself in my arms and we kissed before going in search of a safe place to spend the night...

From those hours of sex, love and wishes fulfilled, our puppy, A-Ling, was born.

He was in charge of raising the child and maintaining the warmth of a home, while I made sure that they never lack for anything.

Without realizing it, over time, what began to be missing in our house was me.

The worst came five years later when I met my Destined Omega at a business meeting.

A beautiful young woman who lived in Japan, with a good economic position and a hard worker.

We talked, I told her about my situation and told her I couldn't leave my family.

She told me that she could wait for me all the time in the world, because she didn't depend on an alpha to survive, but she warned me that we were destined to be together.

I never cheated on Zhan and I never would when I was still with him.

Then A-Yuan arrived and I felt much more pressured than before, my heart loves my family but my animal side prays for its destiny.

All this time I was in despair, I tried to push him away, to prepare him and at the same time I didn't. I wanted Zhan to remember that he doesn't need an Alpha to move forward, more so if it's not his destiny.

I was a jerk.

But my words were carried away by the wind, it seemed that he didn't want to hear me, he began to take suppressants for his jealousy and then added the aroma inhibitor.

We began to be strangers living in the same home, everything became routine, boring.

Although he always greets me with his beautiful smile and hot food on the table, I no longer see that sparkle in his eyes when he looks at me.

I don't want to abandon him... but I don't fight to get him back either. It is easier to continue in this situation.

What would happen to him and the children if he found out the truth?

Zhan without hesitation would tell me to go in search of my omega, how do you leave the person you loved for so many years even though you know it won't be for life?

He doesn't want to find his destined Alpha, I know that, even if he won't tell me.

I recently received a message from her, confessing that in a short time she would return to the country, her father had arranged a marriage with the son of a famous businessman with serious financial problems.

She needs me to save her, she wants to be marked by me, by her destined Alpha.

How do I explain that my situation is still the same or worse than before?

I can't abandon Zhan. I can't leave my kids...

I went in to take a shower to clear my thoughts, it was late, almost dawn, I forgot Friday dinner with the children, my heart ached for failing them over and over and over again.

The image with which Xiao Zhan -my omega- greeted me, made me swallow hard.

I found him lying on his belly and so many memories came to my mind...

He always used to wait for me like this, ignoring my presence. Annoyed. He would talk to me only to lecture me about the hours it took to make an elaborate dish only to end up reheated in the microwave because of my disrespect for family night.

So, I got closer, I smelled the natural aroma that his body gave off after having bathed, I caressed his dark and wet hair and then I started to spread kisses on his neck, collarbone and back...

Finally, I realized that he was in a deep sleep.

I clung to his slender body as my eyes welled up with tears, which fell silently down my cheek.

I felt him muttering something that I couldn't hear, I started to caress his beautiful skin, while I apologized for being late.

He refused as he always did when he was angry, but in reality I knew it was one of the many games we played in bed.

Him making himself beg and me taking it so that he forgives me.

How I had missed his warmth, his soft movements.

His pheromones are no longer released due to the medications he takes but his moans and hips continue to respond as they did at the beginning of our relationship.

" Love... it was incredible..." I whispered in his ear, placing a kiss on his slender neck as I left him.

" It was..." he told me without looking at my face, while I saw how his slender naked figure got up from the double bed and began to move away from my side, to finally get lost in the direction of the bathroom.

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𝕋𝕠 𝕓𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕦𝕖𝕕.....

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