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I. And then there is "Myself"

          There would be vastly simpler, if I just let the life of those I am concerned about is to be washed off. I could have been not soaked into what is it I am being by now. Should I have never been there and not doing what I have done, it could have ended any better. Then so, why should I try to inject myself with the monstrous amount of lies to blending in?

          I am just a boy, a normal boy to be precise for that. But the relevance of my living is being harassed by those whom I mentioned before as wolves or hyenas, is something in a great scale that worries me. I told that in those I told you before that, I was just a bear. To be really precise on this matter is, I am a loner bear. I was and I am better to be alone rather than to blend in. I have my own manner to finish and secure my business over my privilege to choose that how my life would walk.

          I have my custom and system to walks in as a bear which sustain its life based on itself and what it got. Rather than picking up on smaller and weaker, but then in a pack they hunt. Bear rather have a more complex, and also a different way. On that, it made a big, or it should rather to be said a huge amount of energies is needed to continue the system.

          But, am I suitable on this case of becoming, which what I have said, a bear? Am I qualified for the things that I produced on the old days when I was quite being harassed way more often than this? Am I still the same person, or I didn't? But where are my courses of actions taking me in?

          That was rather confusing, yet an interesting way to conclude those I have been through on my past days. A rather violent process of how life is being broken. And then after that it is all being built again, by human judgments. The process of electricity runs through a head that then giving impulses through nerves and going into the system, that then direct a simple body to do amounts of complex project which it has planned.

          Do I live my life the right way? But that answer is not really on my head after all this time. I still try to figure that how should I stay. Will I try to destroy, or rather than that built me? But am I doing something wrong?

          But please, answer to my question, just if you have the answer. It is not something simple that I request. But did I answer it the right way, like it should have been done by those who have a better judgment than me? But now I am asking to whoever tries to understand. Did someone got to understand?

          But thank you. It could never have been done by me alone, but then I am a loner. Would world have become simpler if it could be alone? Or did the interference is needed?

Yes, I do question myself. It probably just me, but it seems a bit scarier every seconds I try to hear from the mind that is speaking to me. Some may call it hallucination, but I sure am not under the influence of any fungi, drugs, or anything. I am one hundred percent aware of my self-existence in this world. I am running the life that it should be. But why I do think that sometimes I do not do it the right way that it actually should be?

The answer is on me myself, yes. I do aware of that fact alone that it comes to be blocking my rational way of think. Since I walked out of school and realizing that those wolves wouldn't even try to care those I wrote on the article that soon will be published. But I believe none will even try to read. What can I say? It that the uncivilized wolves are just devolving backwards from its humanoid form that eats in the manner of omnivores.

Where are their terrifying fangs that they had? I see none of them in the real life that eyes are seeing, not even their claws. But I

 see on their humanoid form that they could bite and crumble those bones of victims. Because their humanoid forms are powerful. They do as human does, but with a more barbaric and a lifestyle full of that that are natural on their forest habitat.